🌱Anders🪻🐝

By Nicholas Roa

People may think I'm an asshole and very loud at random times but they don't know i've actually been holding back the entire time and they should be impressed it only slips out sometimes. And that's okay at least i know how hard i try and I'm not generally disliked yet so it's ok

Misophonia nightmare; being locked in a room with people with bad teeth who are eating whole grain sandwiches and cookies and picking the dough and seeds from between their teeth with their tongue. I require euthenasia. I would rather vincent van gogh both my ears. Send help. Now

Walked well over 25k steps yesterday and my body is seemingly returning to normal at last, no cramps or muscle aches or tummy ache or weird bloat anymore; everybody say YAY

@Personhavingfun Happy birthday personhavingfun i hope your birthday will be enjoyable and full of things you like!!

Its my stupid birthday

A photographer captured a weasel riding on the back of a green woodpecker

Overwork injuries can also affect me??? The sickly child with weak ankles??? No freaking waaaayyyyy

I love Balming Tiger so much and I've especially been vibing to Omega Sapien's stuff for the past months, i can't stop streaming it!! The creative direction is groundbreaking I'm loving it

I've been made submissive under men in my life, then the same men turn around and tell me sexism is a non-issue in our culture. Bruh you question my intelligence and credibility, insult me and act agressive when i speak as an equal. You don't act like this to another man, do you?

"Why are you suddenly acting like this?" Suddenly? Acting? Like what? I don't see me acting, I'm not entertaining your ego so now I'm "suddenly" acting like what? Don't get up in my face and raise your voice as if I'll act submissive, because I'm not intimidated and I bite back.

Making pizza with grandma, it's her first time trying that and we're slaying we're cooking we're baking we're absolutely grilling

I'm starting a C25K program today and I'm like? Wait y'all're taking Rest Days??? It's gonna be interesting to keep track of my run-walk intervals and slowly increase the runs tho because i want to maintain my pace and be sustainable but i go too hard so this will help with that

I'd love to be able to run a marathon at some point tbh, that's my secret target now. Despite minor health disadvantages like asthma, hyperflexibility and cholinergic urticaria I've proven to myself that my stamina can improve as long as I listen to my body above all other goals

Yesterday i heard someone say "i'm bigger than before, but if this is the size my body needs to be to endure training for a marathon and get stronger i will let her do her thing." And i think i really need to internalize this. I can't get stronger and starve myself simultaneously

Ok i know i'm healing my relationship with weight and self-image and it's an ongoing process that will take the rest of my life but i just saw the highest number on the scale I've ever seen for myself and I'm really trying to convince myself that it's okay but it doesnt feel okay

Running advice online fucking sucks i literally do not give a fuuuuuck about training efficiency, Zone 2 Training, cadence, pace per kilometer. Take a hike babes, I'm here to feel good and connect with my body, not put some performative number online fr

I can't rationalize it but i can't allow myself to have good things in life (like idk meet up with friends) if i am disappointed in myself so i guess i better do something good before i hermit again

That being said i don't have the impulse control to stop myself from snacking so i will have to make up for it in exercise or else

It is the burden of the poorly-discliplined self which the motivated self must carry, each day we toil yet each night we undo the rewards

Maybe it is me who is distant and unavailable idk much to think about