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#emotwt #edtwt intro Yo I'm River // Ana, BPD, AuDHD + 17 || He/Him || typical emo lad Extremely queer, always battling something or other Cw/cbmi on profile Dni: proship, pro-ed, basic dni Ifb most 15+ shedtwt #emoedtwt #shedtwt

Zippers on baggy jeans buckle so weirdly. I look like i have a permanent tiny boner

Holy shit ptv just finshed. Best day of my life. Also... fasted all day so im lowk locked in. Idk how i didnt die cause i was starving and at barrier getting pushed in all directions. Regardless, I'm so overjoyed, i love life

Pierce the veil 10/4/26

Remember who you are you emo piece of shit

i WILL meet the love of my life at pierce the veil tomorrow. Trust. Im not just delusional

I've also been so suicidal this week, after the guilt i had on the weekend for loving my friend, it eventually subsided but i went from being in love again to a 9/10 on the suicidal scale overnight. Bonus, im not yearning for him anymore. Negative, i now yearn for death

Theyre still very much here and now i cant bare to look in a mirror without thinking i need to die

I have ptv TOMMORROW... and im going to be fucking huge and im disgusted in myself for letting myself go. I was semi in recovery because i thought the disordered thoughts were quieting up a little but instead they were just overwhelmed by binging urges instead

Im so fucking disgusting. I forgot to take my antidepressants for a week and have been getting really back nicotine withdrawals. Im dying. And so ive been binge eating like crazy these past few days, im too anxious to step on a scale but ive visibly put on a lot of fat

I love armand vro... i gotta be like the only armand itabag owner buts ok because im dedicated

@fmylife345 Thats the problem... yes💀 I keep trying to devalue him in my mind but every single time i find myself metaphorically running back

@d34thbr3ath imagine them doing the most vile and cringeworthy things you can think of them ever doing. do you still want to be with them? do you still love them if they would?

I am going to push this down until i don't feel like this anymore. I need tips, how do i get rid of a crush Ive had for 14 months

@FaintingVulpe Latiao (辣条) lit. Spicy dough stick. Its like a strip of kinda chewy dough coated in chili powder and oil. Its kinda spicy and tangy tasting. Im not a big fan but i know some people LOVEEEE it

hey chinese people i have a question; whats that one snack where its a thick white-ish strip with spicy stuff all over it? i see them in those videos of the old chinese dude selling snacks that you see at 3 am and i really want them

@AmeYamero Can confirm... just woke up. I feel like death

@d34thbr3ath Please drink some water, water is good for you and needed to not shrivel and turn to dust

Holy shit i havent had a single non alcoholic drink today

Holy shit its 4pm and ive consumed probably close to 600 calories of purely alcohol

2pm in the afternoon and im already buzzed. Im so excied for tonight im on a BINGE

Omad today and my meal is vodka. Life is good

I found a brandy melville shirt at the thrift today. I got excited because theyre supposed to be actually small and suit petite frames but i find theyre only small around the bust and thats it😭 I've found smaller shirts at a kmart

There's no one who thinks of me all the time and is like "i wish he were here" or "we should invite him" and like specifically me. I know i must sound narcissistic as fuck but sometimes i just wish that i had that kind of bond with someone where they actively want to be around me