dylan ꕥ edtwt

I was literally so perfect why the fuck did I ever think this was fat and now I can’t even lose 2 fking kg fk my chungus life

@H0SHIN0_K4NADE finally

shoots you

y’all were NOT happy with my take on this which is surprising with how hypervig this community is literally look at her acc following only tiny fitness models & ferrera camilla is all the info I need to call out this it’s ed content disguised as wellness rage bait

this is such performative bullshit and anyone who falls for this a dumba$$ so shoot me

!!! ik im rounding down here but im finally back in the yellow!! BMI 15 next !!

after 2 months of rapid weight gain (46kg -> 58kg) edema and the most depressive episodes I’ve ever experienced, finally the number is starting to drop again I will get back to bmi 14 idc about anything else #edtwt ㅤ

brain convinces me to eat & yeet then decides yeet no longer functional like excuse u ???

if I wake up in a good mood just know its either from successfully restricting or purging day prior soz

I gained the weight and they fken ditched me bc the public system tells u to get fked as soon as u reach ur mid 20’s and now here I am fat and deeper into psychosis than I was at bmi 13

I wasted so much time, money, energy on therapy letting them convince me I’d be functioning better if I gained the weight and I have and I’m more psychologically maniac than I’ve ever been

if any of my moots are recovering I’m so sorry but u might wanna mute im about to vent

there hasn’t been a single day I haven’t thought about my weight since I became aware of my body

women will go thru the most traumatic gut wrenching trauma and still look for the best in ppl whereas a guy will get his heartbroken once in year 8 and make it his life story and reason he ‘just can’t trust anymore’

I went on the first first date I’ve had in 4 years and it wasn’t nearly as anxiety inducing as I imagined it to be ??? (Still a bit)

i feel miserable while starving AND when eating can i die actually

taking a break from healing to focus on substance abuse gotta speed run to bmi 14 by June

told my mum I was having the worst depressive episodes and panic attacks after ending my 4 year relationship that was the only thing keeping my afloat and all she says is … “so u got a new psych?” 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

not gna let myself travel again this year until I’m minimum bmi 15 I need motivation

@kknucklevvelvet *soft moan*

i wish i had more aussie moots bc like who tf do i ask what their fav low cal woolies items are hello

me when I see another influencer post a curated voiceover monologue about how they struggle with food this disease makes me contemplate offing myself daily stop fucking sound dubbing it to hozier as ur sick romantized content