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Okay, so the audience member is infected, Starlight gets infected and maybe it does end how I wanted.

Instead I'm surrounded by idiots with mediocre dreams as I slowly die.

I could become so powerful with so little money.

あなたは自分自身を愛するべきです。

McGloughlin Brothers - Video for Swarm by Max Cooper (2020)

*Listening to raps about rat snitches*

The biggest fear of those who think is the inability to construct new narratives for themselves.

The thing that lay at the far end of my dreams was extreme danger and destruction; never once had I envisaged happiness. Yukio Mishima, 'Sun and Steel'

That which is most precious in a human life is indeed found in such an irreplaceable moment of ecstasy. To hurl a single wave into a void of depravity, as dark as a nocturnal sea, and capture in the foam the light of a not-yet-risen moon. Ryūnosuke Akutagawa, 'The Martyr'

I am contracting myself but not really

I am totally ambivalent to it.

I lowkey kind of like court. It's basically what goes unsaid in everyday life. I don't know if I have autism but it actually satisfies a part of me deep inside.

“He who has overcome his fears will truly be free.” — Aristotle

All my muscles hurt so much

I really need to start eating better and maybe exercising.

🖤🫀💕

Bye

I was never taught to be normal and now I'm dead