( AWAKENING )

he shines like the sparkling reflection of the moon in calm waters at night.

To the one who’s willing, I beg you to kill me.

following your heart only works in an ideal world / following your head will spare you from agony / don’t take chances if you aren’t expecting the hurt / you can’t be who you want, life doesn’t cater for fragility

i knew from the moment our gazes first locked that you would tangle yourself so deep into my life, into my very essence, that i would not be able to rid myself of you for a long time.

“you’re doing it again.” “doing what?” “telling me how i feel or how i should feel. you don't get a say in that. if i say i love you, then i love you. you can process that however you want to, but you don't get to tell me i don't love you when i know i do.”

i know what i’ll lose, but i’ll make this sacrifice / this investment in myself will gain interest over time / if you have a problem, just move aside / i’m here taking control of my life

i've never loved my name more than i have when he says it.

“you're just tasteless.” “how can i be tasteless when i'm into you?”

i've come to realise that the more you gain yourself, the more you lose everyone else.

each time i failed to find the girl that i've always wanted. but this time you're right in front of me and i'd be a fool to let you go. this time you're right in front of me and i can't look at anyone but you.. for the rest of this life and every one after this.

The same way she says falling into my arms makes everything melt away... having her in my arms does the same. It's like the world around me just disappears because my world is in my arms.

“i'm fine.” “really? you get your voice back and the first thing you're going to do is lie to me?”

I write that in the past, I let this name define me. And now I write that this name is for me to define. I used to let this name define me — its weight, its expectations, its oath. Now I will define this name myself — its meaning, its strength, its beauty, its light.

there’s something about your voice— the softness it holds, smooth like silk running over my skin, warm but as if i’ve touched ice so cold it burns me in the best way. infinite warmth fills my body hearing the sweet melody, yet an icy shiver runs down my back every time i hear it.

I've extended my stay in her heart.

even if i’m not yours with that label, i am still yours if you'll have me.

Whatever life throws my way, I can take it. I can turn agony into beauty within me, purify the cursed energy attempting to choke me.

if i have to love and lose you... if i have to love you and lose myself after losing you then i’ll do it. i’ll risk it all for you. i’ll risk complete and utter destruction for your love, for as long as i can have it.

energy cannot be created or destroyed; where do i go once this physical body can no longer hold onto my soul? when it finds itself in another vessel, will you still find me? i could recognise your soul no matter where, what and who you are — mine is too tangled with yours not to.

you're not a little droplet of water, you're a hurricane.