ivy

୧ ‧₊˚ 🍵🌿⋅ intro ⋆ 𖤓 ⋆˚࿔ 19 • they/she • not new, deleted old account in recovery i really like space bpd, schizoaffective (bipolar type), ocd, and panic disorder gave recovery a genuine attempt but am once again falling back into old patterns #edrtwt #3dtwt

@okaykay5678 yeah, same here :/

@destroyingivy I barely survived high school too :( I was doing so well until mental illness hit me

Is it just me or are there a lot of former gifted kids on this side of the internet tell me I’m not the only one😭(I fell off pretty hard, I dropped out of uni)

@rubiiyon salad my beloved 😍

I LOVE SALAD

@xx717xx_cm nooo im so sorry </3

chipped a tooth last night and realizing that yes my actions have consequences (purging) #edrtwt ugh

anyway went out with a friend which was nice and i feel less anxious now that im not outside or around food anymore. havent eaten yet because im scared of having another panic attack but i dont want to fast so i have to figure out what to do

i hate my body so much i was crying while i was getting ready today because i feel like i look so huge no matter what i wear. why do i feel worse about myself the more i restrict

ate under my limit but i still feel so fucking guilty idk if i need to lower it :/ i just hate feeling like this so maybe a decrease is how i avoid it for now

@m0chavivi im sorry to hear that :( always do whatever you feel will be best for you, theres no need to apologize to anyone for that. i hope that taking some time off your phone helps <3 love u mootie

hii i’ve been having such bad anxiety attacks the past few days so im sorry if im not as active! i’m gonna try to be on as much as i can but i need to get off my phone for a bit 🩷 i love u all mooties :)

my heart is beating so fast and hard that im actually getting concerned

@m0chavivi REAL theyre so so yummy ‼️😩

i’m so addicted to drizzilicious

@ihrtchoc yayyy i love this for you :))

I AM ALLOWED TO JOIN TEAM DINNER AT WORK!!!!!! idek that i might be over eating. i’m happy to finally have been asked

@xx717xx_cm cannot even express how much i fucking love that

i just learned that a group of starfish is called a galaxy what if i cryyy

@axelotlecals omg :(( im so sorry, good luck 🫂🫂

I HAVE TO GO TO THE MENTAL HOSPITAL AGAIN FACKK

@rubiiyon thank youu!! its like a coppery red :)

@destroyingivy what colour i bet it looks so good!!

my friend in cosmetology school just dyed my hair for me :)

@rubiiyon hi mootie! starting out is hard but it genuinely gets so much easier the more you post :)

as a chronic lurker and first time poster what do i even say now hii new oomfs

i keep waking up and falling back asleep and every single time i dream that i overate and wake up panicked 🫩 guess this is a sign i should wake up for the day

@okaykay5678 okay im glad, i believe in you and im wishing you all the best :)

@destroyingivy I think I can scrape by, I’m trying to find small things that make me happy :)

I lowk forgot what chronic suicidal ideation is like, treatment resistant depression sucks

@nolonger3ating please add me! :)

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@okaykay5678 im glad you have a plan at least, but yeah definitely sucks that you have to wait so long :// do you think you have enough tools to get you through until then?

@destroyingivy Tysm, I’m very fortunate to have a plan for treatment but I’ll have to be waiting for a few months for anything to start which really sucks