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jiung talked about how when he was a trainee, one of their assignments was to listen to an entire album and analyze it. for his rap lessons, he’d listen to songs and write whatever he felt.
he shared a passage he wrote after listening to “냄새 (smell)” by QM 🥹 it’s very nostalgic and emotional… jiung’s been a deep thinker like this for a long time 😭💭
“i could vividly picture my dad coming home from work when i was young, a snack for his son in one hand and, in the other, a bag heavy with worry and exhaustion. i could remember the image of him standing by the shoe cabinet so clearly, opening his arms with a happy smile, as if all his tiredness had been washed away. i don’t know why, but ever since i was little, whenever we sang the song ‘cheer up, dad’ in elementary school, my eyes would fill with tears. i don’t know if even back then, some unconscious part of me understood just how hard things must have been for my dad, but i found myself missing the scent i used to breathe in as i rubbed my face against his suit when he came home. because i could still remember that smell to some extent, it made me feel happy, but also empty and sad. as i grow older, if i ever catch my dad’s scent from myself or from someone beside me, i think i might burst into tears right there on the spot. i think i would miss the old days, and it would all just feel unbearably sad. seeing my mom and dad’s faces in my own reflection, and realizing that this is the way i’ll remember them for the rest of my life, felt so incredibly sad. when i imagined myself standing there, looking into the mirror like that, i felt so small and pitiful. it made me think that adults are no different from children. the only difference is that they’ve become a little more numb, a little more used to pain, sadness, and hardship. those feelings are just hidden to some extent.”
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