Emily

@SuicideChrist You’ve always put those emotions into words that I’d never be able to find for myself otherwise. One thing about your music, I always know it’s gonna be there in my darkest hours. You’ve saved my life Scrim. Love and light 🤍

it will have its positive moments. but it’s very dark. one of the few places i can just let it all out has been by myself in a room with a mic through music. i say things that i would otherwise never be able to say. feel emotions i usually wouldn’t feel. i’m a pretty stoic person in real life face to face. i struggle to identify emotions. i just shut down and want to runaway. i’m avoidant. i have a wall up that’s hard to break down because i don’t trust anyone. i would say overall - it’s very sad. but each solo is a period of my life. there’s no character or person to be or box to check. the mask is off for a brief moment in time

@SuicideChrist Will Runaway feature songs about sobriety and recovery? Love everything you’ve ever put out, I’m just over three years sober myself and have dreamed of hearing music about finding God and recovery from your POV

having my phone go off during the AA meeting and the ringtone is “hate bein’ sober” by chief keef

when i die cremate me and put my nose ring on the urn like a charm i’m not going without it

stylish older women remind me what life is really all about

I just want my whole nervous system to finally rest in 2026. I want my heart to stop racing every day, I want to get out of that constant fight-or-flight mode, and I just want real peace. I’m begging for a year where my spirit can breathe, my mind can slow down, and my life finally makes sense along with the people that’s in it.

i hope the lover girl in me dies

telling a man what u been through in the past then realizing ur bleeding in front of a shark

sooooo fucked up how it really is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. so fucked up

being in love is a humiliation ritual

the most beautiful thing about my friendships is that all of them have seen me throw up

fuck u and ur final act of love bro

craving an ice cold diet coke. a fridge cigarette, if you will

okay ouch

this was better than anything on Netflix

So I taped two 40s to my hands, which was the style at the time

Harry Potter sliding on Cedric’s girl the very next semester was insane work if we’re being honest.

Not exaggerating when I say this probably changed the trajectory of my life

I’ve been sober over a year now and i’ve discovered that eating a fucked up meal at 4 AM is just a genuine interest of mine