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the urge to relapse after only 3 days

i feel so paralyzed like i can't even do simple tasks anymore, why does my mh make me so useless it just makes me feel worse :(

@delicaterrors lwk five minutes after posting this i was back to desperately wanting to relapse, id encourage anyone to at least try to recover but i know how hard it can be

@festeringshadow get this propaganda off my page lwk

chat, maybe recovery...isn't all that bad

"i care about you so much" i was showing signs of mental illness for 7 YEARS before you got me (inadequate) help, i don't want to hear it

tysm for 90 million billion followers!!! idk how this happened i've only been active like a week lmao

i miss that feeling...

istg just having to be alive and function stresses me out so much and it feels like the only thing that can comfort me is sh but now i can't even do THAT anymore :(

update the voices said i could buy whatever i wanted under $20 as long as its not blades so slight win ig

finally buying new blades today!!!! (unless the stupid voices stop me :p)

🪾 { #promotwt , #moothunt day 4! } 🌫️ 18y/o, they / he / it, dogboy :p 🪨 not new to shtwt! in forced recovery 🪵 no dni i block freely, i fb! { #shtwt #slittwt #988twt }

i need my blades back im genuinely going insane over here i need them backkkkkk

how it feels having very noticeable attempt scars

"it doesn't count because i don't use a blade" "it doesn't count because i don't draw blood" "it doesn't count because i don't go deep enough" it ALWAYS counts, please know that these thought patterns can eventually kill you, and stay safe no matter what you're doing

i had a dream last night that i was at an arcade and there were fucking box cutters and kai razors as prize options chat am i cooked

🪾 { #promotwt , #moothunt day 3! } 🌫️ 18y/o, they / he / it, dogboy :p 🪨 not new to shtwt! in forced recovery 🪵 no dni i block freely, i fb! { #shtwt #slittwt #988twt }

@kaileyka1 i miss mine sm can i have one :(

I love knives so fucking much

yeahhhhh recovery is amazing for other people but i need myself to get as bad as possible before i even consider getting better

some of the voices are telling me i'm faking everything and some are saying i need erika's help who should i listen to :p

🪾 { #promotwt , #moothunt day 2! } 🌫️ 18y/o, they / he / it, dogboy :p 🪨 not new to shtwt! in forced recovery 🪵 no dni i block freely, i fb! { #shtwt #slittwt #988twt }