Brooke🦋

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I sent a couple screenshots and asked for help because you were abusing me. You sent “extensive” screenshots to get ahead of the narrative and make yourself look like a victim. How pathetic.

The vast majority of abuse does not happen in public. It happens in private. Behind closed doors, in conversations no one else hears, in patterns that are hard to explain until you finally step back and see the whole thing. From last year into this year, I was in a volatile, emotionally abusive relationship with Billy, someone in the BDSM / Findom community. Someone many of you know, and someone whose reputation already came with warnings I previously did not want to believe. When people spoke poorly of him, I defended him. I believed there was more to the story. I believed the version of him I saw at first. Charming, tender, protective, loyal, and misunderstood. That is part of what makes this so painful to say now. I protected the image of someone who eventually abused me behind closed doors. I am not sharing this because I want drama. I am sharing because I am done minimizing what happened to me just because it happened where other people could not see it, or where other people were not willing to see it. People who are abusive in private can still be charming, well-liked, generous, funny, respected, and kind to everyone except the person they are hurting. That is part of why it takes so long to understand what is happening. You keep comparing the person everyone else sees to the person you are experiencing alone, and you start questioning yourself. For months, I was left confused, destabilized, emotionally raw, and pushed into one of the darkest mental states of my life. I kept trying to explain my pain to someone I had repeatedly told was hurting me. I kept hoping for accountability, care, repair, and basic honesty. Instead I was made to feel disposable, replaceable, and unreasonable for reacting to pain I did not create by myself, while the people around him continued to praise and celebrate his accountability, growth, and accomplishments. I am not ready to share every detail publicly, and I may never share everything. But I am finally ready to stop carrying this in silence. I tried addressing this directly with Billy more than once. I tried to be heard without making it public. I tried to give him the chance to acknowledge the extreme harm he caused and do the right thing. That never happened. And at a certain point, silence and avoidance do not get to rewrite what happened to me. This is not an invitation for debate, gossip, or interrogation. It is me naming my experience plainly. Billy abused me for 8 months behind closed doors. It changed me deeply. And I am choosing to tell the truth without protecting the image of someone who did not protect me.

People who are genuinely happy don’t have to scream how happy they are 24/7 to validate themselves.

Don’t worry, I would happily say all of this to your face. Too bad the only thing you’ll see from me is a restraining order though

You wanted to be known as someone and mean something so badly for your life to have meaning. Here you go. You’re famous for being a repeated abuser to many women. No one will forget your name now.

Reactive Abuse is apparently an outdated term. It’s called Self Defense, Protective Action, or simply Fight or Flight trauma response now, to more accurately represent the circumstances. I cannot make this shit up if I tried.

If I’m a “fake bitch” for speaking the truth about him being an extremely abusive individual in the BDSM/Findom community, then so be it😇😘

Then what does that make you for protecting a serial abuser? For giving him a shield to stand behind? For both indulging in and co-signing his abusive behavior?

Intimidation will never work on me. Unlike you, I don’t desperately need the validation from everyone and everything

If you think I’m being cruel you should have seen the 8 months of emotional, psychological, and social abuse I endured.

A severe lack of empathy is a hallmark trait of psychopathy

This is someone who has confessed to killing smaller animals. Not for food. Depraved and disgusting. You know what comes next? Women. Humans.

He has made physical threats to me before, going so far as “I’m going to kill you”. He doubles back and acts like he’s joking but what do we all know about jokes? There’s always some truth in them.

P1 - I think it’s time to dive deep into what a narcissist really looks like since it’s sometimes hard to tell. This is normally by design, since they tend to heavily protect their outward image that people can see. Narcissism looks like soft, slow, and caring beginnings.

Repeated abuse is not a mistake.

That kind of betrayal cuts deep on purpose. And you’re meant to stay down and shut up. You’re meant to be so intimidated by the repeated humiliation. So much so, that you’re terrified to speak out, or too beat down to get back up and fight. So they can stand there with someone, anyone, besides them, and take great joy in pointing and laughing while presenting your reaction to their smear campaign as the problem.

It’s crazy loving and supporting someone the best you can, only to find they were running a smear campaign for months behind your back to everyone that would listen

divine women are made to walk hand in hand with the wild and untamable, in recognition and mutual respect

You can dress up your words with flowers but your actions depict a steaming pile of shit.