Spoily@SpoiledBySpoily
Most of you know me as the retarded and goated dev, bagworker/believer or trader I am
18, Employed & still in school making ~500k from crypto in the past 6 Months
But for about ~1 Year now I'm fighting demons I've not managed to defeat
After beeing at broke all summer 2025, and beeing -8,000€ in debts I managed to pay off my debt after making my first 5 & 6 Figs from Crypto in 4 Weeks (Sept/Oct. 2025)
I turned that 6 figs into ~260k$ Trading in november
But 1 Month later, 1 Day before christmas? I was at dead zero again.
Gambled every single penny, every single sidewallet, stables, holdings, oneclipped every conviction play in 2 Nights without sleeping a single minute between two Workdays where I sat shaking in my office
But I decided to lock in harder than ever before, built myself up from the ground, hit a nice small 5 Fig play, and turned that 20k$ into 220k$ in the trenches again.
I was so fking happy to make it all back this fast.
In June I will finally have my last day at Work/School....
I was thinking about the summer vacations I can afford now.
Bought a nice watch, and actually "lived" for a few weeks after turning 18 and I was finally able to travel independently, etc. On top of that, I was ~ 2 Months completley gambling free.
But what happens when the "few weeks off" are over and you fall back into old habits? Beeing depressed at your 9-5 all day, isolating yourself in your own room for months? Not going outside? Doing nothing with friends or family anymore?
A few weeks later I had a relapse, had a small win, and wanted to "call it a day."
A few days ago I tweeted, "The people who never won big at the casino don't even realize how lucky they are."
Let me explain this: since the year I've been dealing with my gambling addiction, I've lost all enjoyment in everything else in my life.
No walks, no motivation, no sports, no training, no gaming, no chill weekends with friends, no good food or appetite, nothing. Nothing felt real anymore because it didn't give my brain what the casino gave me.
Addicts (whether to drugs or gambling) lose interest in everything else in their lives, and with gambling, it's a constant "hunt for dopamine" until it becomes a "hunt for what you've lost."
How did it end?
After that relapse, I gambled 4-5 times a day for 4-12 hours each day, for 1-2 months, without any relation or attachment to the money and while I was experiencing severe withdrawal symptoms. I knew it would end badly, so I transferred almost everything I had to my Ledger and gave it to my parents (who knew nothing about my addiction).
Offcourse, that didn't work, because an addict always finds excuses and ways.
I've had good and bad phases, but after almost every heavy trading loss, I tried to gamble the loss back at the casino. Most of the time it worked, sometimes it didn't.
In the past three days, I've gambled away my entire portfolio again, every single penny I had.
I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy to go to school/work the day after he'd rinsed the yearly salary of all your colleagues in 30 seconds, and had to pretend everything was okay and keep answering his emails for the company that pays you 700€ a month.
What I want to tell you all with this tweet:
Get a life outside of crypto, you need a second IRL activity that you can focus on. Your goal should be to Lifemaxx. Eat clean, get a clear had everyday, and dont destroy your dopamine receptors with cheap doomscrolling, gooning, fastfood or gambling. NEVER GET BORED
Never, ever touch a casino. (not 5$, not 50$ and not 1000$+)
The second your brain is taught that it's possible to turn $500 into $1,000 in 2 seconds, or $10 into $10,000, your brain may never recover from that.
Block every single user and bastard who promotes any kind of casino.
Never press the "Increase Bet" button. Whether you win or lose, your next bet will be at least the same amount or more than the previous one. (To chase your loss or chase the next dopamine hit, because a lower bet doesnt give you the same feeling anymore)
Don't tell everyone about your money, and don't get excited about the numbers on your phantom wallet until you've converted them into cash, physical items, or numbers in your bank account.
Never touch the hand of the devil bros.
God can take everything from you faster than He can gave it to you.
