me watching the first episode of vampire diaries when they first say “dear diary”: that’s corny
me watching the third episode of vampire diaries when they say “dear diary”: ohhhh
it fucking sucks having dreams about someone you’re in no contact with like once a week. having a dream they text you to work everything out, and waking up to nothing 💔
when i finally started to feel like myself again, the same thing happened again except i fell for one of my longest best friends who always made me feel so safe and he just completely abandoned me out of nowhere.
for a while i was very aware of not speaking negatively about me and my reality, but it has just been so hard not to recently when it seems like everyone and everything just constantly disappoints me.
glad my mom lives in my neighborhood and i was able to show up to her house and cry for a minute. what a great fucking end to my day! happy 31st birthday fucking loser!
and on top of already feeling like a fucking loser, i got a $45 parking ticket within the 20 minutes that i don’t update my parking. that was just the icing on the cake. i’m done being there for people who don’t give a shit about me.
this is a dumb af thing to complain about but i am so sick of being there for all my friends birthdays and not getting shit in return. posting pics for everyone and no one does the same for me. always a group chat for someone’s birthday, only a celebration for me if i plan it.