the autism makes it hard to make friends because i truly am disinterested in most things people have to say unless it exactly applies or appeals to me in some way and it's terrible because i know only talking about myself & my own interests seems very rude but i just can't care.
no one talks about how hard it is when your mood is constantly switching between “its okay, i don't care. i'm fine” and “i don't know how much more i can take”.