illy :3

౨ৎ new intro because main (@abortedd_illyy) got sussed :> - ୨15, he/she, diagnosed ana-b/p (I see it more as bulimia though) - ୨163cm, sw: 55kg, cw: ?, gw: 36-38kg - ୨basic dni, ifb most!!, pro recov ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ ♡ / ↻ for moots #shedtwt #shtwt #edtwt #bsdtwt

not losing weight not losing my period not losing my appetite not losing calories only losing my sanity and my hair fuck this

no idea if she even remembers promising this, but that’s why it’s important to record everything ^^

wasnt PLANNING on cleaning my room this evening, but I found a recording from 4 months ago of my mother promising to give me free cigarettes if I do, so maybe I will..?

going into some fuckass suicidal episode and I’m not even going to have successfully killed myself by the time it’s over. pathetic asf, just let me die

urges to cut my neck are awful, but remembering what happened last time I did that is making me think my wrists are the safest option. My parents are pretty much fine with it, as long as it’s on my arms

what if I said my life goals were to be 5 apples tall, and 3 apples heavy, so I could successfully hang myself on a pull cord switch

@Madmanswitness I have a piano that I haven’t touched in YEARS so I think this is the most achievable option, I’ll definitely try again at playing it again now ^^ (I also have a stack of books (some novels) I’ve been meaning to read too so will also try that >:p)

To clarify, what I think it is: it’s a fun game where you tag your mutuals and list your favorite activities to encourage your mutuals to try one of the activities! Isn’t that lovely? It’s not necessarily in order nor mandatory, so pick whichever you like or none at all.

atp it’s a mix of trying to cover up the empty feeling that I can’t seem to fix any other way, and trying to keep my weight stable so they don’t fucking section me 💔

really missing when I wasn’t b/ping MULTIPLE times a day, I hate this so much

@justatwig_ ohhhh wait I have pretty low iron at the moment I thinkkk, I’m not sure if that contributes to low oxygen or not but I felt like I read about it somewhere 😭 idk maybe I’m just yapping welp. BUT THANK YOUUU OMG!!

why are my scars AND nails turning purple

@luv4everR4npo OH NOOOAOAOOO illy the grape 💔

@glitteredflesh U turning into a grape 🤔

YES OUCHIEIEIEIIEIE

@luv4everR4npo SOBSOBSSS I HAVE NO IDEA WHATS HAPPENINGGG 😭😭

@glitteredflesh FAVOOMFIE WGATTA

idk if I’m alone on this, but imo finger pricks are 100 times WORSE than actual blood tests. especially when they like keep trying to squeeze blood out of your finger eughghhh

ends of my nails are blurred because they look manky asf

(also ft: my fat index finger, all my other fingers bully it for being bigger than them ☹️☹️☹️)

was having a hard time purging, so what do I do? I go and eat more in the hopes that it’ll force everything else out with it </3 illy logic is so fucked

a character and five oomfs to do the same @his__ideal @glitteredflesh @nwarcoticchan @4path3t1c_4ng3l @x_Klexx_