Christine 😃

okay but on some real shit yall really don’t even have the slightest clue what the fuck i’ve been dealing with the past 3 months behind the screen and all the stress and grief and exhaustion and anxiety i’ve been under due to circumstances i can’t even bring myself to talk about and have not been processing healthily, which i don’t expect you to know because i don’t come on here projecting and taking it out on anyone. i come on here as an escape to take my mind off of that stuff and focus on the good and spark some joy and bond with my oomfs because i really fucking need that myself. so yes i’ve noticed and been aware of how the lack of taking care of myself properly the past few months because of that stuff has changed my appearance. i see it and i feel it and know that and don’t need thousands of people pointing it out. like you guys are seriously so inhumane and vile and forget that your words hold actual weight. like what the fuck do you want me to do about it??? i just shouldn’t ever feel confident or love myself because of some stupid shit like gaining a little bit of a gut??? is that rlly how yall navigate ur own lives??? cuz that just makes me feel bad for you like what a tragic mindset omg yall are rlly stopping ur own bags and depriving yourself of so much joy and fun by conforming to and worrying about shallow ass shit that doesn’t matter at all oh noooo i don’t have good fashion!!! and what about it lmao😭😭 i don’t claim to be stylish because i literally don’t give a fuck to be. writing think pieces about what i chose to wear when i literally gave no second thought to it cus im just going to a concert to have fun with friends, not the met gala. yall care about outer appearance so bad bc you need it to make up for your lack of personality, which isn’t an issue i have to deal with!! not one single person the entire night had anything negative to say because im outside putting good energy out to everyone around me and living care free and carrying myself with an admirable confidence and having fun the thing is i know im still beautiful as fuck and love myself too much to ever be mean enough to myself to punish myself and try to force any type of weight loss, because that could not possibly be less important right now when there are so many other things i ACTUALLY have to worry about instead. and knowing deep down that i would NEVER treat anyone else like this is what’s keeping me full of self love because i can’t even imagine how deeply twisted and sad and miserable your life has to be to get so angry over someone else still being happy and not wanting to curl up and hide themselves just cuz they’re not bone thin. the only reason seeing me act happy and confident would ever bother anyone is because THEY are too scared to put themselves out there or look the same way out of fear of being judged. which is so sad. you really let other’s judgement stop you from just enjoying your life and you cling to all these made up rules and body standards that don’t acc matter at all for no fucking reason, making your own life sm worse when you don’t need to be doing at all. y’all are not FREEEEE so you envy people who are. i really hope all of you find peace and find a good group of people that make you feel loved and supported and uplift you so that you stop hating yourself so much and projecting that onto everyone you see who ISNT as hard on themselves as you are.

SEEING ZARALLAH GODSSON TONIGHT

The “Rival” Pairings:

- Leroy Garrett