PERSEUS.

i want you to know that it is okay not to love me. i want you to know that you are not the first person who found it a little too tough， who took two steps back when my jaws started snapping.

i love you， i love you， i love you. we're soulmates， you and i， but that doesn't mean it works. my soul can't bear to be without yours but that doesn't mean it works.

i want to bind together our bodies， intertwine our bones. i want you to devour me. to watch you， strip off all layers of my flesh and digest.

it's awful not to be loved. it's the worst thing in the world... it makes you mean， and violent， and cruel.

my body is burning with the shame of not belonging.

i was carving my name into your side and you were calling me soft， calling me gentle. i do not think you were paying attention.

you have no one who has any sort of consideration for you. you have had patience and endurance， and what have they done for you? half-killed you.

forgiven? i’m not meant to be forgiven. unforgivable. that’s what i am.

when i cut a hole into my skull， do you hate what you see? like i do.

there's something wrong with me， and it reads nothing like poetry. so will you love me in spite of these tics and inconsistencies?

you are one of god's mistakes， you crying， tragic waste of skin， i'm well aware of how it aches， and you still won't let me in.

i've always been living in search of the touch of someone's hand.

an eye for an eye， a leg for a leg. a shot in the heart doesn't make it unbreak.

once i become attached to something， i fear that i will lose it. that's why you only live for the moment. but you， you brought me pain. pain that i didn't ask for. when i'm with you， i fear everything.

he is holding your head underwater because he is trying to kill you， and you deserve it， you do, and you are ready to die in this swimming pool because you wanted to touch his hands and lips and this means your life is over anyway.

a scared boy with a gun ... sound familiar?

perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as understood.

this is the pain of loving a brother.

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@hujarni Caleb mengusap pipi sang tuan dengan lembut. "Jangan lepas tanganku. Kamu tidak menyakituku sama sekali." Di kecupnya kening @hujarni. "Sekarang, mari istirahat dan pulihkan dirimu. Setelah itu kita akan pulang. Bersama."

@hujarni (c) napasnya dalam-dalam. Lalu ditatap kembali netra hijau itu. Sesungguhnya, hati Caleb terasa sakit. Dia tidak bisa melakukan apapun untuk meredakan kutukan sialan ini. Yang ia bisa hanya menggenggam tangan Zayne dan terus berada disampingnya. "Semuanya sudah usai." (c)

Menunggu @hujarni di lorong tak jauh dari asramanya.