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matthew's 5 minute ment from the last day of encore con... i always get so touched when he mentions the simplest of things the 9 of them did and how he just wants to do it again together... 🦊 i... am having a lot of thoughts right now, there were so many moments that we've had together for the past 2, actually 3 years now. as for you guys, you watch us perform on stage the most often but what i'm thinking of right now is when we get off work at dawn and joke around with each other and just laugh and send funny pics of each other too, everything was so simple but those times... i really will miss it so much, those small sides (of ourselves) and when i went to bed yesterday i also felt a little weird. like i was somewhat... scared. but why am i scared? i was not scared to perform on stage, i was scared since this would be our last time performing as 9 of us, just... when i felt lonely too, like what gunwook said, we could go up and down the dorms and talk to each other, when we go overseas, we would just talk and laugh in the hotel until dawn, this is... i will just miss this so much. we worked so hard too and, back then too during our 2.5 years we were like "wah it's been 2.5 years!" but it ended as soon as we opened our eyes so it felt like a dream. it just didn't make sense. so even now i'm actually, recently when i went back to the dorm, ricky wasn't there. it was a bit... i just miss ricky. i really miss him so much 🐱 i miss you too, i'll come find you a lot at the dorm 🦊 i really miss everything, like how ricky showers and sings at dawn and i miss every single thing. 🦊 firstly, i like it most when i see the members' faces so please let me see it once as a group. *group hug* 🦊 oh... so actually after i came to korea, whenever i felt lonely, i could just send kkt messages to the guys and we could just meet and have a meal too and that was so nice. for me, it was so simple to have a meal amongst us but it made my heart so warm. so... my first feeling was, after we debuted did we have jjajangmyeon and pizza? back then i was so happy and it was the start of us, now i just... want to have a meal together again... i'm sincerely looking forward so much to every members' future and you guys will love the 9 of us forever, right? i'll also watch the guys' videos and upload comments, you guys have to do it too! zerobaseone is forever. don't worry. i love you!