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@aromizu Do u have ur weight inputted

I hate how inaccurate fitness app is dude I did Not burn 900 cals

@kiwidiets woah that’s more than what I’ve ever done

this was so incredibly painful i want to stop b/ping i hate it

@Lylylimia BRO UR SO FUNNY WHY DID THEY NOT APPRECIATE U ENOUGH

Ngl this interaction made me chuckle

@agailpatty It’s okay!! It happens and it already happened but you were able to purge free for a while! Looking at the bigger pictures instead of focusing on this moment means ur purging less overall, which is progress from before. And if u continue to make progress then you WILL get ur goal

Purged this, plus muffin, cinnamon roll, cereal, ice cream and so on 🥲 I really wanna cry I hate myself and I’ll probably do it again

@terrorful79301 I’m so so proud of you

sometimes i feel like people online don’t give me enough credit last year i told myself that my eating disorder is my death wish and i’m OK with dying at 30 but now i don’t think like that at all i don’t want to die i want to be alive and help people i want to be intelligent i want to be useful and make a difference in this world and if i’m dead i can’t do that i know i’m still physically unhealthy but i’m really trying my best not to lose weight anymore i don’t want to be like this it’s just hard food is not interesting to me at all and the textures and everything are so overwhelming so it’s just really difficult for me but i really am trying i mean this last year i was on edtwt 24/7 posting about how i want to lose weight and just live broadcasting in my misery for everyone to watch but now i’ve left edtwt and i’m focusing more on my interests like Hannibal and Silence of the Lambs and Criminal Minds and writing and poetry and reading and criminal justice forensic psychology behavioral analysis all of this i’m hopefully starting an early college full time dual enrollment program next year at the community college near me for criminal justice and when i get my highschool degree with these college class credits i will apply to go to a criminal justice school in New York City hopefully i can get a scholarship there anyways the point is i’m trying to be a better person i’m trying to be a better person now and i feel like sometimes people only see me for who i used to be rather who i am now and it makes me sad because i’ve really changed for the better since then

@wlforkai I have a tiny one at bmi 21 but only if I pose dunno if that counts

guys at what bmi did yall develop a thigh gap ?

@plqvrx how is that possible that ur129 u look 100

129.0lbs 5’9” bmi 19.0 malespo thinspo boyspo edtwt edrtwt

@ghostivyleaves don’t let your ed take away ur fun !! U can always go back to the ed after

I am so sad, during college I've been asking my mom to go to a town near my city that's fun to visit but I can't handle the food situation at all. I can't order a salad or say I don't feel well without an argument. they have really good pie but there's no way I'll keep it down

@sekitsuii Omg I love Those chocolate dtick wafer things. Did u get it from an Asian supermarket

eating straight sugar but it's touching greek yogurt so its healthy

@puke0al You are so far beyond fat u can literally gain like 40 pounds and still be skinny

tired of this fat life

@tsukasasanabyfr It will! It’s not possible for it to not. Just don’t weigh urself for the next 2 weeks at least

@iheartholy it’s really reassuring… there’s at least 5kg of fluids in me right now… i really hope it goes away ╰(〒皿〒)╯

if anyone wants to know just how bad the swelling is and why exactly it is making me so so genuinely suicidal , 6 june , 19 june . 400-600 calories per day . do you understand how miserable i am? again, … genuinely considering offing myself over this. (◞‸◟)

@agailpatty Build muscle so u can increase ur metabolism and over times u get leaner naturally without having to have an ed and mental torture

Ugh I’m so confused do I maintain and try to build muscle or excercise purge a bunch to lose and hopefully still slowly build muscle so I can be extra lean??? Ugh.

@ghostivyleaves I’ve never thought about this. Would save me a ton of money but I’m scared of being caught

resisting b/p urges feels like your bones trying to leave your body

@rotttenpup Yay thank UU

@iheartholy thank u thank u!! bmi 20 height 165

this is so cringe, anyway is this skinny fat? also no i will deff not post my legs and sorry for the nasty background

@hannahstrawbs Noo it’s bc ur too precious to just be stuck with anyone. You are worth more than what these boys can offer

it seems everyone can find someone and no one wants to be stuck with me i didn’t think i was so bad

@hannahstrawbs She’s frustrated cuz she’s worried about u but doesn’t know how to express it

everyday my sister shames me for my disorder but i never shamed her when she had hers. obviously all eating disorders suck, but she starved and all i do is stuff my face and then throw up. what a cow i am

LETS GOO NEW LW!! 113.5 lbs!!!!

@hannahstrawbs No your face is SO SNATCHED trust girl actual jawline goals #mogging u r like the opposite of fat and puffy

ignore my chub arms but is my face fat/puffy? or does it look normal? i actually don’t even know what i look like