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I wish I could have a drink. Cigarettes and caffeine don't do it for me.

I went out to a club tonight and felt really uncomfortable ;(

Happy two and a half month sobriety. I would imagine it has done me some good but I still feel depressed.

Half the people I started working with have already been fired. I wonder if i'm next.

I can't believe my best buddy at work was fired. Fuck this company, management is a bunch of lazy fucking imbeciles.

My cat is staring down some random cat outside, they're both afraid of each other and don't know what to do.

Currently hopped up on Xanax, I needed a stress reliever. Negative thoughts just out of control lately.

I blew off a party I really shouldve gone to tonight. I feel bad, I'm such a loser.

Still no drinking but man am I depressed. Jesus I hate my life so much.

God I'm so sad and lonely and my self esteem is low. I'm smart and good looking too, what the hell? :(

I really don't care if I get fired from this job, it's driving me bonkers.

I'm still unbelievably depressed and freaking out over where I'm going in life. I'm getting hooked on Xanax and life is montononous.

I'm a sad lonely alcoholic

Full blown, raging alcoholism.

I think I have HPV.

I can hardly breathe.

Hung over. Really back on the wagon now :( self esteem at an all-time low. 3:08 AM can't sleep.

Hung over.

I've actually been starting to feel emotions lately instead of numbing them with Xanax and alcohol.

I feel really weird. Too much caffeine, Xanax and cigarettes. Little paranoid and antsy.