indie🐈‍⬛ relapsed but in forced recov

─ .✦ plan for being in strict forced recov but still trying to lose✦. ─ ─ .✦ between -700-1000 deficit ─ .✦ 2.5L water a day min — .✦ 30g+ fibre a day min (unless unable to track) ─ .✦ 15-20k steps ─ .✦ 15-20min ab workout every morning

still kinda stoked that I managed to do this when both my parents are home and I’m supposed to be banned from all exercise

how do people do harm reduction I’m still in gonna be in an 800 deficit for today and I feel guilty burning less than 1000cals😭

❓ why do u avoid people even if they are nice to u 💬 what are u talking about??🤨 who #tellonym tellonym.me/indielovesoats…

ok I’m not going to take my olanzapine bc I’m scared it will increase my appetite and it makes me super fatigued for the first week or two

pb&j bran🌚

❓ tell me about the meaning of one of your tattoos? 💬 I drew the big ones myself, and I also have a little one on my wrist with cherry blossoms that I got in Seoul☺️ #tellonym tellonym.me/indielovesoats…

❓ would be cool to chat with you but do you answer everbody? 💬 yep if it’s not a straight man :) #tellonym tellonym.me/indielovesoats…

do all disordered people start having daily nightmares ab their eds

@chanellezss my mum said I looked like one😃😃

ok i see the thought but now what type of comparison is this 🤯🤯🤯

@hannahstrawbs you are already so tiny and losing is much harder at a low bmi🫂

there are genuinely people losing 10lbs a MONTH i need to work harder seriously this is just a slap in the face

why do I feel like my eating disorder is the only thing I have I can rely on and look forward to

my new deodorant does wonders omg

Such a weird concept to me that today you can be crying over a number on the scale but last month you were begging to be that same number. Perspective with weight loss is so important because our self perception is so distorted

anyone else get like moments of lucidity & realizes ur actually really skinny & then it just goes away & suddenly ur fat again ????? 😭😭

how it feels to do anything when ure restricting

prob not doing a metab day this weekend bc I was too tired from my meds to go out and get the frozen yogurt today :( I’ll probably eat around 1400cals today and burn 2300 and then not track tmr but try stay under 1800

@shushuverse are those tater tots, yummm

pretending it isnt a lot of kcals for my mental health

olanzapine is increasing my heart rate so it’s lowk gonna make me lose more even if side effects say slowed metabolism

❓ what subject do you study? 💬 spatial design #tellonym tellonym.me/indielovesoats…

❓ i feel like it takes a lot to really get to know u 💬 what does this mean💀 #tellonym tellonym.me/indielovesoats…