Jen Howse

My cancer timeline: April 2020 - diagnosed with #PancreaticCancer in the ER May 2020 - Whipple June-Nov 2020 - chemo Dec 2020 - remission July 2021 - recurrence.. now terminal August - Nov 2021 - chemo (did not work) Jan 2022 - begin clinical trial @ThanksCancer #stage4

@CancerFinalGirl @deb_maes61 I told my husband of 20years that He had fulfilled his duty “in sickness and in health” better than I ever could have hoped for.

@deb_maes61 I think "in sickness & in health" has probably always been a rarity. If we look back to the past where people just moved to a new town and started a new life because there was no internet the stats were probably just as bad.

I've seen this happen over and over in the world of #cancer & its heartbreaking. I feel SO LUCKY that my partner treated me well & took wonderful care of me (and still does). It does seem to be mostly men leaving, but I've seen wives leave too... So sad 😔

@BSBreastCancer MB Shannon is a friend of mine and an incredible writer. Available on Amazon. No audio book yet, but the paperback is a quality item!! ❤️

Summer Reads? Tell me all what you’re reading!! I think we should start laying down our books I need some new suggestions! Audio is great too I definitely listen to books as I’m cleaning and doing my things throughout the day anybody else do audio? #cancer #chronicillness

Racing the clock with #stage4 #PancreaticCancer it is all about time… wanting more… fighting for it… feeling the weight of time… having no idea how long I have, only knowing that I don’t have long. It’s a lot. ❤️💜

Remembering to breathe while testing to see if I can get accepted in a clinical trial. The trial is “first time in humans” which means it may contain the miracle I seek: more time 💜 #PancreaticCancer @pmcancercentre #Clinicaltrial #stage4

@truth_for_tmrw @pmcancercentre @letswinpc @PanCancerCanada Thank you! I’m okay here… in a bit of a holding pattern as I wait for a trial space to open up with my name on it! I have began screening on 2, so 🙏❤️🤞

@jenhowse @pmcancercentre @letswinpc @PanCancerCanada @jenhowse thought of you and realized I hadn't seen any tweets this month. I hope you're doing ok...sending positive vibes and healing energy.

Life with #terminal #cancer… still in a treatment “pause” while we continue to sort out the bleeding issues, so I can resume treatment and slow down these 🤬 tumours. #PancreaticCancer @pmcancercentre @letswinpc @PanCancerCanada

@Mio_Yokoi Incredible! Thrilled to read this, Mio!!

STABLE! 🥹

Agreed, @CancerFinalGirl! My first attempt into the e online support community was a stage 4 #PancreaticCancer support group that had a LOT of people joining to share their grief over a loved one’s passing. Very triggering! Loved ones need support, but it was the wrong forum.

Before my sudden cancer diagnosis, my life was all about being a #mother … to the best of my ability… now, with #terminalcancer it’s all about preparing my daughters for life to continue as fully as possible once I go. This sucks. #PancreaticCancer

@charb33 I’ve done the same. We all have our moments, and they don’t make us small… they make us human! ❤️

@jenhowse You are a hero❣️❣️❣️❣️♥️. I just cried because they cancelled a treatment. I feel small. I shall “ buck up”!♥️♥️♥️⭐️

@ohyouresotough @LibbyMbc

Please stop talking to me if your sentence starts with "at least"...

@dollbabytina Thank you, Tina! Sending you love!

@jenhowse we keep going! hope the bleed gets resloved, and you can resume the trial. sending all the good juju to you and your family. 💜💜💜💜

In terms of my #stage4 #PancreaticCancer treatment: I am still on a pause with the #clinicaltrial drug while we address the internal bleed that remains. I have faith in my team at @pmcancercentre and a good feeling that things will improve 🧵 1/3

@Mio_Yokoi Thank you! Sending love back to you, Mio! Always!!

@jenhowse Yes! Time to resolve the bleeding and resume the trial!! GO JEN GOOOOOOO!! 💜💜💜 sending tons and tons of love your way as always!!!

I am ready to resolve this bleed, and resume the clinical trial. I am optimistic that I will get more time to live my life with those I absolutely LOVE. I won’t survive this cancer, but I am still here… and I am ready to do WHATEVER IT TAKES 🧵3/3

I had radiation on a metastatic tumour in my colon and take a drug called Sulcrate 4x/day for the stomach bleed. We now investigate the liver stent placed in January to see if it is causing a bleed for me and if so, we replace. 🧵2/3

@LibbyMbc @BSBreastCancer Oh, Libby. I am so sorry! Down days are the hardest to endure. Virtual hugs ❤️

@BSBreastCancer I'm incredibly down today. I do not want to live this life anymore

Today is one of those days I have to go to my "happy" list and take many of the things off of it to counter the negative, how shitty I feel mentally and physically! But here's the thing non #cancer #chronicillness peeps don't have a wee-clue what we have to deal with ...

@SudhirAnuradha I am very sorry for your loss 💜

@jenhowse My beautiful mom Mrs Jayakumari Muthyala, stage 4 pancreatic cancer passed away peacefully a day before Mother's day. It hurts and I realise grief is a sign of love

This Mother’s Day, I am sending love to all of the mothers who are fighting cancer, to the mothers like me who are fighting a losing battle, and to those who could not become mothers because of cancer. ❤️#PancreaticCancer #MothersDay2022

Happy Mothers Day to my mother @SandraJCrocker and my sister @1BethWill ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️