Khaosdepression

Can u see the pain behind my smile? Can u see the pain behind my eyes? I cant even began to emphasise.

Your silence is defining and my emptiness is screaming.

What compelled you to message me. How did you find me? i don't want to hear you or about your existance anymore.

So.. I think for just this moment im happy... I found my long lost 1st best friend i havent seen her nor talked to her in 14 years. (Sinse 3rd grade) and were hanging out tomarrow #anxiety #sofuckingnervous #iprayshedoesntenduphatingme

Person-i wish ud drop dead Me- shiiiit me to..

Heart racing fast time is slow but the feeling moves past. That's what it felt to be in your grasp. Those moments have past i knew they wouldnt last...

I carried your burdons when your strength failed you. But mine are to much for you to handle? As I drown in these thoughts what made you think it was alright to take those shots?

Staring at the walls, hearing the ringing of laughter in the background. But where do I fit in under? Why was I even created? These are questions i have for my creator. #POEMS

Ur gone and I'm all alone.. Theres no one left for me to feel at home.. Come back answer your texts answer your phone I can do this on my own.

How can someone be grown and look 13 but dont mind me.. I'm 21 and I still cant get out of bed.

Im not that good at being a model. I tell myself that everyday... But u definitely burned those harsh words in my head.

The world will never be perfect. neither will I.

I work 2x harder in the morning just so youd take a second glimpse but you dont even look at me to begin with. #whytry #itsokaynottobeokay

I never be someone. ill always be just another person in everyones eyes.

My heart drowns with you and your tears. Your not alone.

Running back and fourth between feelings. causes you to suffer 4x as much.

Me- "gives every detail to my back story" Friend- how are you still alive? Me- silent Friend- *remains curious* Me-we dont choose where we come from but we can choose where we go from there. #blakebliss

Theres so much pain rushing to the front of my face. all caused by anger. Because you wanted to be ignorant.

@Roberta919202 EXACTLY! Which is why i created this little profile to show people its OKAY to not be okay 100% of the time and its not weakness when you cry. Society has us all bent backwards about medicines and "getting help" when in reality. WE ONLY HAVE EACHOTHER.

@khaosdepression No therapist or pill can help you. Those things just make other people money. You have to reach way deep inside you and search around for the strength to want to feel better. Don't expect instant answers tho. Nothing worth having is easy but it will take a lot of work.

There's no help for me, I've already been forced to see a therapist rehab, help, medicines... They don't work.. They never will... Its just drowning the pain with a defining numbness.

Let me ask yall a question. If someone gave out ur social security # and your phone number TO THE LAST PERSON u want it to go to... Without your permission. Whats ur reaction?