Kionetta
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Kionetta
@kionetta
F/A CS2 Awper and Mass Effect super nerd.
Texas, USA Katılım Mayıs 2019
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Streaming some Faceit Pugs! Come by and chill! :)
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Will be streaming the ESL Impact Qualifier! Team Chimken is back! twitch.tv/kionetta
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Streaming DM and Aim Practice. Chill Stream and vibes. Pugs later 😎
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they said to fake it til you make it and I did.... being incredibly sappy and a bit vulnerable right now, my 2023 ended in one of the hardest ways. I got released from EG when they decided to step away from the CS scene and I got diagnosed with an auto immune disease all in the matter of a week, and I was considering stepping away from competing because it felt uncertain if I'd be able to find a new team and I was in a dark hole for a while, watching my health decline rapidly and watching parts of me such as my energy, my sense of self, my appearance, my day to day life change that I couldn't get back from my disease. It felt hopeless for a while, and I was so unsure in myself as a player to be able to get anywhere and just unsure of myself in general from feeling so low of what was happening in my life. I felt isolated and like I was losing myself.
But then I found my home in FlyQuest Red, because they believed enough in me to be apart of their team and they saw me, they truly saw me as a player and what I brought to the table, and I'm so glad they did. They helped bring back my confidence and positivity after the dark period of time I'd been struggling with and helped me improve as a player and believe in myself and instill in me that I'm a key part of the team with all of the strengths and roles we bring to the table. I'm still trying to manage my health to this day, but it's gotten easier being surrounded by the people I have in my life and by being with a team and org that supports me and helps me grow. It's gotten easier because I'm genuinely happy spending time with these people and they make it easy to love the game and the team. Our result in Dallas wasn't exactly what we wanted, but the progress definitely showed and the result doesn't tell the full story and grit and determination (or the trolls😝) of the games. We've been working so hard together to show that we're a strong team and we've done a lot of growth as a five together and it's clear our ceiling and floor are incredibly high.
I'm proud of myself for working through it all, even when shit felt hard or when I was feeling uncertain of my ability or when my health was faltering. I kept grinding to make it to the top when I knew I lacked experience so I tried to make up for it by always learning, always trying to be better, never giving up and it paid off to get me to be here. I'm proud for what I showed in Dallas even if I know I can do better next time, and I'm proud of my team for what we showed in Dallas even if we know we can do better. It doesn't end here at all and we know there's still work to be done, but we know it's in the palms of our hands and we can easily reach for it if we just try hard enough. Thank you to my girls and coaching staff and org staff for always being there for me and pushing me to be better and supporting me. Thank you to everyone who supported me and who supported FlyQuest Red❤️❤️❤️ I know the rest of 2024 will be great.
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