ivy

⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ looking for mutuals! ivy, 22, any prns ! edtwt + vent acc (v suicidal) high sw + 172cm dni : normal criteria, -18, non edtwt likes : ar1ana, kp0p cr0cheting, h0ckey (the sh4rks especially!) not new to edtwt ! pls rt <3 ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

@rinamadee i work retail so get on average 15-20k a shift i normally manage about 3k on my days off tho 😭

how do u guys get 20k+ steps every day without your feet falling off…

why do i feel so much better when my stomach is empty

i have to fantasize about killing myself regularly or else i will kill myself

running on monster and zyns today

felt too sick to eat on my break at work

235 cal smoothie for breakfast

i’m 4kg lower than i estimated i was

gonna weigh myself for the first time in like 6 months in the morning so ending my shit is still very much on the table

still wanna end my shit but at least i got steps

going for a walk instead of ending my shit

at least then i’ll die pretty

might just starve myself until i die

like it’s so obvious he’s realised how ugly i am but just won’t say it im not fucking stupid

i feel fucking sick i know he’s lost interest in me cos im fat and disgusting

the amount of ai crochet patterns on pinterest is actually driving me up the wall

my ex keeps telling me how much weight he’s lost and how many sizes he’s gone down recently as if i won’t blow my shit smooth off in front of him

crocheting is literally the best physical and mental distraction from food i can literally go hours w out thinking about it if im locked in on a crochet project

i’m hoping the drs figure out whatever the pain i’m experiencing is soon cos it stops me from exercising so much

wasn’t even rly losing weight but i looked so good when i was consistently doing abs so that + wl is gonna be so good 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

ordered some adjustable dumbbells for home for when i’m too lazy to go to the gym 💪