jade

Hello Everyone I Have Gained Atleast 5-10Pounds And Want To D Word

yikes. unfollowing her now. i was a huge fan of her constant psychotic breakdowns. was not aware she is genuinely unwell

everyone emphasises the physical strain that an ed takes on your body but the mental strain i fear is even worse, the brain fog, the mental exhaustion, the way that even thinking takes it out of you, how your mind is constantly thinking of food or negatively towards yourself ough

i hate seeing pro ana shit

i high key hate this account and edtwt in general yall are so fucking cringe aside from the people who use their accounts to vent

i feel disgusting and full every fucking day no matter what i eat my stomach hurts and i am gassy and have to shit 24/7 this is so fucking painful and uncomfortable and annoying

i miss so much shit that i can’t have anymore because of these strange rules in my head. i’m fine with certain higher cal things but god forbid i have a piece of normal bacon

i miss eating sourdough bread i miss eating normal pancakes i miss eating full fat icecream i miss eating oreos i miss drinking things that aren’t low cal or zero sugar i miss eating more than a standard serving size of candy i miss not caring

i know i’m not fat i know i am barely underweight and normal sized but why do i feel like i am the most disgusting nastiest person ever?

i miss eating things i used to love without feeling guilty for just having a single bite or half a piece of it or a sliver of it. i feel so guilty for eating things but i also haven’t weighed myself in weeks because of the fear that i have

why can i feel my body fat and my own skin constantly. it feels disgusting i feel disgusting

why do i feel so guilty for nothing? why do i feel the need to starve myself and deprive myself of nutrients i need in order to live without feeling like im gonna fall over from weakness?

why do i fuck up my metabolism even more than it already is? why am i doing this?

bro i need to die i hate living in this body and having this brain my hair is so ugly and thin and im balding and am so weak and bloated all the time for literally what? what am i gaining from putting myself through this? why why why why

Its so draining and nobody cares cus u aint bmi 13

me when i buy a pack of built bars and don’t eat any of them because i am lowkey scared of the cals of them and like to hoard things ill never eat

my hair is falling out so much but i want nothing more to lose weight and get rid of anything that’s left of me

i’m so fucking fat and disgusting and have no friends and no one likes me and i’ll never amount to anything and will never achieve anything and will die alone

@Mimimeowmeows so so beautiful i’m so jealous. please live your life to the fullest