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｡*˚✧May Accountability Thread✧˖*° #edtwt

@fuck_twt_0 @nunusavviours are you fucking stupid

@nunusavviours ariana's ED being way more serious btw

the way people treat jenette mccurdy’s ED compared to Ariana’s alleged one is very telling

might delete and make a new account honestly :( im haunted by my failures here

thought I was recovering from my ed but I was actually just gaining weight so I could freak out and become Ultra Disordered

hey so why am i horrible and disgusting and why do i ruin everything and why cant i just interact normally with normal people and why does everyone hate me and what if i killed myself

like why am i even hungry right now when i was eating like such a fatass pig 24hrs ago. this is ridiculous. im so fucking stupid

im having a fuck this disorder moment and i dont know how to lock in and push through. to make it worse my roommate wants to know what im having for dinner (hopefully nothing) and he wants me to eat oreo cupcakes…dude you took me to endless shrimp YESTERDAY FUCKKKK

@yaiuhz maybe im evil but i really only have 1 dead relative id care to bring back and hed hate the world as it is now so….skinny

skinny or bring back a dead relative?

im fasting today, a burrito place i love had cheap burritos for cinco de mayo yesterday so i picked one up and its gonna be my gym fuel for this week. i plan to have half tomorrow and half saturday maybe? splitting it allows me to fit it into my cal budget, only 380 for half

thread update coming later btw, i was exhausted last night and i had a morning shift today so i havent had a moment to do my tracker

i put on my watch early this morning and im having a taxing day at work so ive already burnt ~100cal. my goal was to burn 800 at the gym but since im fasting today and thats like 2hrs of cardio i think im gonna cut myself some slack and count what i burn at work towards my goal

as i feared, today was the first day that ive gained since i started weighing again :( i think its mostly food and water weight since i suddenly broke an 83hr fast with 1.5k cals (and tmi but the food has not wanted to leave me..) but it doesnt stop me from feeling ashamed :/

today i walked to the gym and as i passed a panera this girl inside made like a disgusted face and pointed at me to her friend ??? like what? i didnt even look weird or gross, i was freshly showered with my hair done and in cute gym clothes? like okay bitch eat your bread, damn

im gonna lie down and let myself digest so i dont get sick from the sudden large intake after fasting, maybe take a nap, then get up and go to the gym (or maybe start with a walk and then the gym, we shall see) … the grind never stops 😫

okay so if my math is right my red lobster meal comes out to a little over 1500cal (but its hard to find info on the portion of orzo rice they serve with the shrimp skewer so thats a loose estimate). if i can full send on my workout plan for this week thatll be easy to burn

+also i havent consumed anything besides water and alcohol since friday and today is tuesday so let me live 😭 i was in a trance

(3/3) the plan was to do 2 scampi, a skewer, some broccoli, and 2 biscuits. i ended up doing a scampi, a skewer, a marry me shrimp, a coconut shrimp, some broccoli, the rice that came with my skewer, and 1 biscuit. i feel huge but i take solace in knowing shrimp is pretty lean ig

(1/3) so…endless shrimp. essentially i got there and the calories listed were very different from the ones i found online which makes sense since that info was from the original endless shrimp deal and theyve only just brought it back. also, the portions for your original order

ignore the typo in my last tweet or ill die

🌀May 4th pretty uneventful day. i went on a walk, did some delivery work, worked on my weekly plan, and fasted. im not going to make it to 96hrs like i had planned since im getting dragged to red lobster earlier than expected but i have a plan in place to burn it off

🌀May 3rd water fast today, i didnt do much. i was gonna workout but decided to try to make this a 96 hour fast and thats not really compatible with the gym. i might deliver tomorrow for money and a distraction depending on how i feel. pretty successful day despite it all

｡*˚✧May Accountability Thread✧˖*° #edtwt