bells

how i looked earlier quite literally crying over soup just to eat it anyway

@omadhanji im not very active on mine but do u wanna be moots 🥺

being 10x more active on my stantwt acc than on here has actually helped me distract mental hunger

i would rather eat more calories eating something i chose myself than eat less calories that someone else asked me if i wanted #lol

if i eat anything someone else offered/gave me it feels like a loss of control because i didnt choose it originally

like i just want it to be gone permanently im tired of people asking if i want food im tired of eating

im so fucking tired of food

im annoyed asf my power went out…. my yasso pints….. my chobani flips…… my cottage cheese…..

thinking about the days leading up to my full relapse where i ate a big portion of pasta with vodka sauce and spinach…. who knew that would be the last time id eat freely 🤣🤣🤣

and the one she got me is 480 calories like omfg im never eating that bye.

im annoyed asf because i grabbed myself cookies that i like that i will probably never eat and then my mom grabbed me another one and i was like “oh its ok i already got cookies” and rhen she was like just get another one LIKE WTH NO IM ALREADY NOT GONNA EAT THESE

i deadass have SO MUCH FOOD stored because my mom and my sister keep buying me snacks that i never eat like why do i have an entire backpack full of food

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i had the tiniest amount abd im logging 400 calories bc tf,,,????

my mom made a panof mashed potatoes and said she put THREE STICKS OF BUTTER in it wat the fuck

@countingbone is that built puff good? :o

junkorexic omad - 590cals

hit a new lw and got my period therefore im allowing myself a 380cal drink 😬

ended under my bmr at least 😔 if i gain im going to cry

tfw you only have anorexia every other day

@thin0reo omg wait this reminds me i have playlists for last year and this year where i add a song every day! it helps me remember each day better

does this make me a psycho? i have a playlist for each month since november 2023 i think i add songs i relate to or enjoy during the month and im able to go back and remember things from that month easier. idk if that makes sense if anyone wants to share spotify’s id love to :3

anyone else know someone who is so skinny but eats so much so you’re convinced they purge but have absolutely no proof whatsoever