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im j so happy to be where i am rn mentally and physically. ik i have a ton of room for improvement on both ends but yeah. i was NOT fun to be around when i was a teen and BMI 40+.

its j crazy like if i was at my HW id be suicidal asfff. wouldnt want to talk to any of my family members, would kms trying to pick out an outfit bc of the way i look. but now i fr dgaf!!! yayyy. and maybe part of that is just due to my frontal lobe developing idk.

made it to my parents house. my brothers wedding is tmrw! 😁 im still obese but idgaf. i brought my scale w me. im gonna go on walks and stuff next week. gonna use this time away from home and work to reset.

think im gonna stop drinking energy drinks </3. ive been having chest pain ugh

@corvusrexic adhd moment

I need to walk to the grocery store but I gotta shower before that and also I need to do the dishes and take out the trash and take care of other stuff too AAHHH

@skelehellion i wish </3

@lightest_angel thats my guess anyway idk i havent seen anyone say mini may lol

@lightest_angel mini like small like ana april but mini may.

i’m so confused why is it called “mini may” ???

@princessdie_t im in the south and it came from an older black lady so im sure it was a compliment. its just not something you wanna hear when youre disordered lmao. she was sweet tho 🙂‍↕️

sigh

my brothers getting married this weekend! so im leaving thursday to head to my parents house. exciiiting. im kinda scared tho. i dont want to gain a million lbs like i did when i visited for christmas 🫩. im driving there this time… & bringing my scale with me lol.

1715 cals today…

@babywr3ck yeah they have like 9g of fiber. and taste better imo. + more flavor options. the only poppi i like is the wild berry one

@lowcalhighsw OOOO OKAY HEARD

the girlies are saying poppi soda is a laxative 👀

Everything around you is built to make you consume. Even “3 meals a day.” Not natural. Programmed. You’re not hungry. You’re trained like a dog. I’m done following the script.

@wdympluto real

Why is ignoring binge urges so hard omfg . I got paid today and I’m fighting for my life not to spend it all on Chinese food

@thintight huh. yeah it does seem a little inaccurate. at your HW i can see it being this many cals but not at your cw

@lowcalhighsw I updated it 3 days ago!

definitely rounding this down to like…900 total lol but still good day, I take at 850c

@dietribs 😭

@corvusrexic love that

Fun fact I always carry unsalted nuts with me not for myself, but for a possible crow encounter. Today it finally paid off. And I had my camera too. I'm going to explode from happiness.