lys ʚ♡ɞ | mourning nct mark

it hurts to love fully, it hurts to attach cuz of the inevitability of the loss that comes with it. i hope this grief stays with me because it’s all of the unexpressed love that i didn’t get to show, because really, what is grief if not love persevering.

had this video saved in my gallery for a long time… watching it now hits harder than a truck

will this feeling of overwhelming sadness and pain ever go away

this performance means everything now❤️‍🩹

🐯: My life goal is to make music until the day I die. I don't want to make music like l'm doing homework, but instead my goal is to be someone who can make music until I die. Mark truly loves music, guys if you're worrying please don't 🥹🤍

WE NEED TO BAN TIKTOK I CANT DO THIS

i just remembered this comment someone once left under mark's child teaser

taeyong instagram post.

but im happy mark got to experience a lot in nct. he performed in tokyo dome, got into sm super group, won daesang(s), performed on year end stages, became mucore MC, nct nation, featuring artist, BA, solo album. he got to experience basically everything these past 10 yrs

127, forever and always ♡

dear mark, no matter how much time passes, i think this will always feel a little bittersweet. for so long, your life was something we could witness, every stage, every moment, every small update that made you feel close. and now, for the first time, your life gets to be yours in a way it hasn’t been for years. and instead of feeling like we’re losing you, i think… we’re finally giving you back to yourself.

jeno looked so melancholic watching mark sing his line but the moment mark was looking at him he smiled warmly to reassure him 💙🩵 my beautiful beautiful markno 🫂

i’m so sad and quiet today i just feel so empty and nervous about what the future holds 😞

hope he send a bubble before his bubble disappear 🥹

he said he'll work hard to make everything make sense so please trust and wait for him <3

thinking :(

neo got my back (stabbed with a knife buried an inch deeper each year)

it’s weird bc i’m so distraught and upset but at the same time im weirdly at peace with it. like

went through my the unity fancams and found this. thank you, God, for mark lee 🤍

depression and acceptance are at the same stage for me 😭😭 i’m happy for him im just really fucking sad 😭😭😭