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best part is i suggested it 😭 im also very competitive tho so maybe i just needed to beat someone to stop my b/p cycles

i agreed to do a "Who can cut out sugar the longest" competition with my friend IM BULIMIC HOW COULD I FORGET i've alr lost 🤦

it's so odd to explain to ppl who don't go through it but i so often get ppl who forego the typical script and start reallyyyy trying to make sure i have a good day or they like mention god or something

oh yea update: nothing happened except one clerk at the circle k went out of his way to have a look convo with me and see if i was good, which is normal that might just be his thing but that often happens when i show my scars

i have entirely too much trust in holding a can like this when i have nowhere to put it

@Lolasxstcy lmao i qrt to insult myself before anyone else can

@microdxse Bro I’m ded I was like who tf referenced this and it was YOU 😭😭🙏

god look at her massive tic tac thighs 🙄

fit check that i'm actually going outside in 🤯 bc im feeling brave but i am scared

this oddly specific pose makes me feel kinda skinny

i feel kinda pretty recently, i feel pretty DESPITE also feeling fat as fuck that's so rare

the little like on the butts of cigs are to tell you how far down you suck on the last of the filter till it burns your fingers 🙂‍↕️

I FEEL SO JUST NORMAL AND HAPPY who knew actually taking ur antidepressants would work. you mean i lived in complete mental agony for no reason 🥲

@omeotoris who cares if it's sus that's sick as hell

idk if i used to binge more or i was just THAT much worse at purging before but i took a break from purging for like months bc i just didn't lose weight doing it. wish to be back there

i kinda hate i don't gain much weight when i binge bc i go "well ill just binge till i gain another lb then ill lose it all again" but it takes a full week of binging to go up a lb (and i dont even stop after that so 🫩)

@yuhacal ai generating bmi 8 hands for no reason is def weird

am i too woke or is ts weird

it should not be able to hear me say it that quickly and quietly and mumbled that's fucked up

holy shit i just echo ticced "hey siri call 911" bc im watching rick and morty I MUMMBLED IT WHY DID IT ACTUALLY CALL WTF

@cutmeopeen i was like that for a very long time, honestly idk how but eventually it just stopped. you realize one day "oh i want to live" and it hits like a ton of bricks, i hope you're doing okay 🩵

I ask myself why I can’t function the way other people seem to? My mind is always circling back to suicide even on my best days it’s bubbling under the surface I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s because I’ve been living in this state for so long that my brain has adapted to it

i alr have a lot of physical issues and even throat and mouth issues due to purging but like.. others bulimics have worse so it doesn't mean much

a VERY small part of me wishes i didn't hands free purge so that it would do more physical damage...