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* 💭 ⌗ 𓏲 „ ˋ🎧 #edtwt intro — 18 ('06) ; she/her — 5'3 ; bmi: 15.3 — ults svt ; ot13 — pro-recov ; not fatphobic ♡︎/⟳ to be moots !!

@bloomirelia thank u jem ily im trying to work thru it but i always end up saving fruit & other things i like for a different day " when i do better/become a better person " but then i never feel like it happens so i keep waiting until everything js ends up going bad & i cant eat them anyway

ᜊ ִ   ִ   ִ 𖨂 made a yogurt bowl for reaching 108k steps yesterday ~

@soonwoomeal thank u hehe ily miffy <3

@vanillazomg r there any artists like that for u ? also sorry for taking so long to respond i feel stupid saying this but i get rly superstitious abt turning notifs on again so ive js been trying my best to go thru our conversation thread and check for replies but i also forget a lot im sorry

@vanillazomg omg i have a lot but svt and nct dream are 2 rly big ones for me ! esp the 17th heaven and hot sauce/hello future albums bc i listened to them nonstop in hs whenevr i was struggling and both groups js mean sm to me but i also have others like björk rosalía & some older rap albums

ᜊ ִ   ִ   ִ   𖨂 made a blueberry rosewater matcha for reaching 100k steps recently ~

@vanillazomg hehe im excited for u ^^ if i remember correctly unfortunately jun wasnt at my concert bc he had acting sched :c but another carat ik went to a diff one & said " i never thought id say this but after seeing jun i realized cameras dont do him justice he looks like an angel irl "

@shuaeclair and pls stay safe ilysm yula you mean sm to me so pls lmk if there's anything i can do to help and i hope things get better for you really soon ml :c

@shuaeclair oh no what happened r u ok ? :( pls dont think that way ur valid for feeling upset and ur problems matter js as much as anyone else's so pls dm me if u feel comfy talking abt wtvr ur struggling w or if u ever js want to talk abt whats on ur mind/upsetting u no matter how small

also no one asked but i havent had a yog bowl in a while bc i dont have motivation to make meals anymore and i always feel like i dont deserve it so tdy i found an old tub of yog thats rly moldy & im so stressed i need to get rid of it w/o my mom noticing im so scared

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@vanillazomg theyre js so dear to me i was so happy my heart was abt to explode hehe & u can rly feel how happy they are to be on stage & how carefully they prepared evrything & how they luv carats theyre so talented aa their live vocals r so heavenly & theyre 100x even more pretty irl hehe

@vanillazomg tyy ilyy :< yay thats so fun !! verdino is such a cute bias line i luv that >< it was so so amazing & fun omg !! it was genuinely so surreal to be in the same venue as them & hear their live vocals+adlibs for my fave songs & experience my first concert svts gotten me thru sm &

@vanillazomg thank you ml youre so sweet :c im manifesting the same for youu !! also i rly appreciate u being so supportive & patient it means sm to talk to someone who understands these disordered thoughts and im always here for u if u ever want someone to talk to abt wtvr is on your mind <3

@miffy_cheolin YOU’RE THE BEST ILY MORE

@shuaeclair its so so good !!! hehe ofc cutie ily moreee i always get so excited whenever i find another björk luver she's so amazing

@shuaeclair wordd ibeu youre the coolest ever ><

@yustrvs im making you one rn

@vanillazomg aa ik what u mean im trying to be a little bit more forgiving to myself bc its been hard for me to find happiness or comfort whenever i reach my goals and its rly exhausting to keep constantly thinking abt what i couldve done or how much time ive wasted or steps i couldve walked