AlphA@Ani16z
I never thought I’d share this publicly, but if it saves even one person, it’s worth it.
I’m down over 500k this year. Just from these 7 wallets I’ve used on axiom. Also have used padree and fomo where I just lost 30k in 3 weeks. I can’t fathom the amount over the past 2 years. The debt I’m in will take me years to repay.
Little background, back when Solana was at its peak, I got pulled into the meme coin space. But before that, I had built a thriving business. Years of hard work. Surrounded by family, friends, and a life many people would call the American Dream.
I was on top, until greed crept in. I started with stocks, then options. But meme coins pulled me in deeper. At first I saw people making fortunes and I thought I could too. But no matter how much I made, $10k, $30k, $100k, I somehow always lost even more.
At first it felt exciting. But nothing was ever enough. I told myself I was part of a community. CTO’ing projects, donating money, helping people, trying to do the right things. But the truth is this space is built for scammers. The regular people, the ones trying to do things the right way, people like me, always lose in the end.
And the price for it was everything. I lost countless nights of sleep. I lost weight. I lost time I will never get back. The business I worked six years to build started falling apart right in front of me. But the worst part was not the money. It was the people. Friendships faded. Childhood brothers became distant. The woman I thought I was going to marry is gone. Piece by piece I lost everything that truly mattered in my life.
Now I’m left looking at the wreckage. It will take me years to rebuild what I once had. My mental state is completely messed up, and I honestly do not know when or how that will be fixed.
This is a warning. If you are just getting started, or if you are where I am, telling yourself every week that you are going to leave this space while you keep losing more and more, please stop now. If you don’t, this space will keep draining you. Your money, your time, your relationships, everything. Eventually it takes your soul.
Every CTO project I take over I’ll lose 5/10k, never selling on anyone, always adding at dips from ATHs, for the community to leave me dry. I’ve done some beautiful things, donating over 250k total in donation tokens, giving toys to children during the holiday season, and much more I am proud of. But the process has deteriorated me.
I’ve had thoughts of launching my own token, being my last play ever, and hopefully to remove some of the debt I’ve put myself in.
But I think it’s best if I’m done. And maybe to start reclaiming my life.
To anyone who needed to hear this, go outside, talk to your loved ones, touch grass, workout, and be in the real world and the moment.
I wish you all healing and peace. God Bless.
