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feels bizarre that a liquid i did not think twice about handling all the time without the urge to drink it suddenly felt right in my face. like all that immunity to it was gone even down to the smell. found it a bit freaky ngl

dropped by the pub after 3 weeks not working there and actually smelt it for the first time in years. jesus wow. people joke you could get drunk just off the smell in there but i always thought they were being dramatic

have not had the best week and man sometimes i forget about the simple pleasures of recovery. coffee and chat and getting so excited dunking on chiropractors we have to tone the volume down. just plain unbranded normal. god. felt so good. i feel like i’ve just been on holiday

got my trust hurty wurty so i will simply make a pledge to never permit dependence upon things human. go go gadget delusional

@SundayMargot am avoiding dominos for BDS but oh lord i want this

the greatest pleasure on a run is when a dog sees you and starts running along too. oh it feels so good. both us trotting along until their owners call them back. look at us go!!!!

think i’m beginning to realise that if you don’t treat yourself well it feels bad and it doesn’t feel good to feel bad. big revelation. can only assume everyone else has been knowing this

bit fucked up to be looking at men who express interest like maybe he could be my cat…. do a quick personality survey then conclude no… not the one. just for today i will not try to make a man into my pet cat

going through another one of them periods where i am attracted to men but really i am attracted to the idea of a non threatening man that i get to feed and cuddle a bit and then we never fuck ever. i am attracted to the idea of having a cat

idgaf i’m going. god will keep me sober unironically

is it rock solid faith or rock solid stupidity to go to my job where i will be surrounded by alcohol on a day where i feel like i have zero mental defense, brain worms, paranoid as fuck and i’ve been clinging on for dear life for the last week

I’ve got a face that little old ladies in airport wetherspoons love to talk to

you know those gentle posh old men that make you all self conscious cos you are like a wood louse or a child to them but they’re just so nice. that polite smile they do if you say something that is totally beneath them. is it daddy issue symptoms if i want one of them to adopt me

doin pilates at stupid o’clock (insane) tryna be quiet because the downstairs neighbors deserve peace. get going with the jackknifes thinking ok roll down real smooth real controlled no noise. my fat fucking ass thumped that floor. mortified. horrified. going back to les mills

@HouseJug thank you Beth!! ❤️❤️

one year sober today!! kind of not really comprehending it

@MaxTRex1978 20 years of really being alive!!! well done that’s magical ❤️❤️

@oherrodere Congratulations I'm 20 years sober here's to you reaching the 20 year mark

writing up a treasurers report for my union branch and considering if it's helpful or just taking the piss to make a bar chart. nobody likes numbers let alone hearing someone trying to verbally communicate numbers. but it does feel a little like taking the piss

@rencihru thank u rene my dear brother i love u ❤️❤️

just found out COPD is a terminal illness and not just when you cough a lot cos you smoked a pack a day for 50 years. suddenly get why all our regulars with COPD were constantly hounding me to give up smoking. oh dear