I also realized its the fact that I don’t look forward to do drugs at them anymore so now I just overthink where I’m at like damn I’m in this venue sweating bumping into a lot of people and I’m not really enjoying the music I wanna sit down. Old enough now.
When you lowk realize you can’t rave anymore bc you fat as shit and an old fart and you should just play videogames and be in bed at 10 pm est on the dot.
Ofc I see you, and I’m sorry if I’m not doing enough, but I promise I’m here for everything I’m just trying to figure out something going on within me, but my brain and heart will always have a room for you. The strongest.
I feel like I’m drowning really bad sometimes, but then again I just wanna live more to see what else there is.
To me it’s very thrilling, I think it’s why I keep waking up.
Feeling frustrated is part of human nature and expressing it one way or another is necessary in order to continue
At least thats what I think but what do I know
I’m sorry, I felt frustrated and didn’t calculate what I said. Trial and error is necessary to learn, shame on me for overriding my own thoughts for a stupid conclusion like this.
I’ll just throw everything away and work at accounting or something and have the most boring life and just throw out everything abt love and art and whatnot fuck that I’m not for that of what I spew. I’ll live my nightmare I guess