we're all in hell

camilla maria nikolaeva

Hi Guys i have Reactivated becausw i think i should express how i feel i don't thinkAnyone gaf but like i'm sick of this happening to me over and over this has changed my view on osctwt horribly if i'm being honest i've been harassed on here since i was 14 i would private my account for weeks , this isn't even the first time I've deactivated out of fear it's happened countless times . I'm tired of my mental health being used against me my depression is Horrible my mental health is horrible i am so mentally ill and it just gets worse and worse and knowing this people bully me still and thrn wonder why i don't take it well the last thing i want is to be made fun of for being so attached to something i use to cope with my horrible mental health 4x makes me feel better 4x makes me happy i think people need to realize not everyone has a good life . my life is not good at all i deal with alot of neglect irl and more which is why i'm on here so much i've gotten better at staying off i think i try not to post as much as i did in 2024 obviously i could still post less but i wish people wouldn't bully me about that too i'm tired of people being ableist to me and then trying to justify it saying they're autistic/neurodivergent aswell , when that isn't an excuse . you can still be ableist even if you're neurodivergent yourself . i just never know what i do wrong 💔 it's hard to be on here sometimes when i feel hated by everyone if i'm being honest i constantly worry about people finding me annoying snd it makes me so anxious i don't think people realize how horrible it is to see posts About You where people are calling you annoying and mocking you and bullying you , it makes me feel horrible . people on here genuinely make me feel terrible i'm sorry but they do and even if it's "just online" it still makes me upset it makes me anxious i want nothing more than to be left alone because this account is a comfort space for me where i can post about 4x and discuss with other fans but people are just so mean to me i'm constantly getting bullied into leaving and for What . because i'mToo Annoying about my special interest? i'm constantly feeling like it's my fault that i'm getting harassed aswell . people tell me to grow a spine or "ignore it" it's hard to ignore what people say about me it really is 🙁🙁 i feel like someone people don't have sympathy for because people don't care about how i'll react to what they say about me do you guys just see me as someone with no emotions??? because genuinely how do you expect me to react to all of this . i got framed , and this has been rhe worst drama i've been in i know i get bullied because people get Engagement when they post negative things about me or maybe it's just for fun i don't know but it gets so overwhelmingly tiring to me it's exhausting 😞😞 to put it into perspective , when i was 14 So late 2024 i would get on twitter after self harming because that was a habit i had in late 2024 Again . to cope with my Life . and then i would see people bullying me and saying horrible things about me 💔💔 i really feel like people think i say i'm mentally ill to be quirky so they bully me when i show any signs of actually being mentally ill but i've been mentally ill since 2024 this is Not a new thing , it's just gotten worse and worse over time i wish osctwt was nicer to mentally ill minors but that is Obviously not gonna happen i just don't know what to do guys i really don't 🙁🙁 if people want me to leave osctwt i will if that's the goal to get me to leave then i'll leave and move to tiktok i just don't want to 😞😞 but i don't Know things have been really bad knowing my luck this will get leaked but i hope not because i'm being vulnerable 😕😕 i don't feel comfortable on here anymore i'm feeling like how i felt in early 2025 after I reactivated my 4xbfdiyuri account but WAY WORSE this time i don't want to have to make a 4th main this-

hello audience tomorrow is one of the unofficial yume-versaries (whatever the gayass anime pfp mfs call them) I have with this character and as a celebration i would like everyone to draw him getting br*tally m*rdered tomorrow thank you

in quotes bc i wanted to separate it