a song, one i would’ve shared three years back (not four my bad), but not with the context of pining for someone or hurting. just a constant.
a remnant of certain parts that i haven’t lost. some that i’ve found.
i just randomly scrolled down to the oldest chat on my imessage and it was from 2022. a person i don’t talk to anymore. one of many.
i feel alienated. like in so many ways i feel like yeah okay that was me, fine. but also, no?
having been so familiarised with it from a young age, i have been avoidant of feeling anger all my life. i would express it through hurt, helplessness, and god knows what; just so i didn’t see it within myself.
but shit, im so goddamn angry.
i don’t want to be angry anymore.
istg people on social media argue about the lives of famous people as if their own life isn’t slipping away. stop judging and pretending that you know jack shit about the people that you don’t. get a fucking grip.