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i got wake up at 5am and i’m just laying in bed not knowing who i am again can i lock tf in 💔

can i stop feeling like this i just want to know fully who i am and what i am and ect

i hate the fact even after 10 years i still don’t know who i am bro 💔

@wesleytits @take1taway lowkey my same thought but didn’t wanna be rude 😭

@take1taway @puffywillowss why r u so strict about selfharm bro

shitty sh sesh i did photos below #shtwt #shrtwt #shedtwt #shedrtwt #slittwt

@take1taway i am aware i’m just messy with it i do it over the cut but it doesn’t really turn out 💔

@puffywillowss But thats not how u multiswipe... multiswipping is cutting over the cut

i genuinely wish i knew what was wrong with me like i know a few things but there is something so deeply wrong with me and i hate i can’t even figure out what the hell it is cause tf you mean i’ve been trying to figure this shit out since i was 11 bro

@take1taway that’s just how i do it i am a huge multi-swiper and it then just turns out to be messy idgaf much about neatness plus like stated my tools are dull af so i pretty much have to multi-swipe

@puffywillowss Why are u multiswipping... next to the cut...

@onyxeyes0820 both my family members shave but they are all electric and you pretty much have to break down the tool to get the actual blade out and doesn’t help for my razors i use those safety shaving razors 💔

@puffywillowss if you have someone you live with that shaves u could use their shaving razors and take some, theyre pretty decent imo

even then most the stuff i want to do i can’t do cause either it’s way to draining or i am to stupid in one area for it and i am way to slow to learn stuff and even when i do learn it i am still slow doing it anyway

i’m genuinely one the most useless people you could met i know little about myself, i’m not good at anything maybe mid at best, i am genuinely stupid cause i suck ass at math and grammar sometimes spelling to, i forgetful as hell, and genuinely idfk what to do for my future

as well every time i remember this it as well just makes me wanna force a shift so damm badly i’ve been stuck here for 6-7 years now 💔

like genuinely what’s the point in remembering this if i can’t even properly communicate with them most the time bro

sometimes after a month or two i’ll just randomly remember i am suspected with p-did but 90% the time these fuckers don’t want to communicate with me so i think i only have like 4 alters/fictives that i am aware of 💔 (even those those four fuckers barely communicate)

edtwt isnt even triggering anymore it just rage baits me

hate when ppl ask me whats wrong because idk either

like tf you mean i did dog feedings, cleaned close to 50 dog kennels plus the cot beds inside, the small hallways, did letting the dogs out for a bathroom break myself, dumped mop buckets and outside buckets, restocked everywhere, still brought dogs up to their owners 💔 (2/2)

genuinely fuck my one co worker i did a experiment today and focused on everything in one area and then my co worker would focus stuff on another area and only thing she did was the three daycare rooms, sweeping and mopping the few hallways, then dishes (1/2)

fuck i just remembered i have a 5 hour shift and my co worker is just gonna bitch and moan the entire time 💔