Mlem

I think I'm gonna start tweeting everyday about how my days going. Going to be honest with it so I can try keep track of my up and down. Maybe it'll help maybe it won't.

Hey @SpotifyUK your audio book limit is a joke. Severely ruined my listening experience when it cut me off in mid battle scene.... I refuse to pay extra for a service I already pay for. Ridiculous.

One day I won't be IDd for an energy drink l, but today tis not that day. I'm literally 30 in September wtf

Haven't felt this bad in a very long time. Even covid felt better than this. Only Dr app I cd get is the 30th, my inhaler ran out & they won't give me a new one until I've been checked by a Dr. Haven't been able take in a full breath in literal days...

Finally found a good motivator to get housework done. Just tell me somebody coming to inspect something in the house.... 😂 I really need to try get this ADHD diagnosis started.

I woke up from a weird dream and just had an overwhelming heartache for the house my grandparents used to live in in Birmingham.

@ElliottEHobbs What a mood

Haven't tweeted in a few days. Went to Scarborough to drop off fam for a long weekend. Had a nice nap with my cat which was nice until he maowed me awake. Feeling a bit better mentally.

The visa thing is bullshit. Answered a very ambiguous question wrong and kts been rejected 3 times trying to fix it. She's gonna have to postpone til the new yeah and is probs gonna cost £££ to change the flights. Mums gutted and its been so fuckin stressful.

Haven't tweeted ina few days bit everything's shit. Mum visa to the US to go see fam got rejected, works been the worst level of bullshit to the point I've worked 9.30am to 9.15pm and my head. HURTS. I wish to not exist for a a few hours.

Today was okay. Work was work. I'm still feeling really tired though. Managed to get my bus so I didn't have to wait 35 mins for the next one. So that's a good thing I guess.

So yesterday was a better day despite waking up with my eye sealed shut from swelling. I ate dinner and fell asleep watching scream queens and remembered to give Alfie his medication.

Forgot to tweet yesterday, I cried at work and had a really good chat with my manager. Meant to look at the employee assistance program they offer but I just wanted to lie down and cuddle Alfie when I got home.

Today I had a shit day followed by a panic attack trying to get through crowds at light night. I'm now sat trying to avoid a particular person at an event I promised my partner I'd attend for him and I want to be hit by a bus so I don't have to do or think anything for a bit

Today I just felt like I wasn't really present. Like my mind was just following me round outside my body.

Today I cried for over an hour because I need to clean and have no idea where to start. My job wears me out so much so I never have energy for anything. I've probably lost so many friends because I am constantly mentally and physically taxed.

Just did the NHS depression self assessment thing and scored 19/21....