daniel

ironically i dont even try to stay healthy, i eat terribly & make myself sick on purpose, self starving since 10, only drank water few times in my life, only sleep few hours at time, avoid sunlight my entire life to point i burn after 5 minutes, i shouldnt really still be alive

i hate every person and this entire species and everything about living and only feel misery and constant mental and physical suffering or complete disassociated boredom, im completely ready to die but only available methods dont work or survival instincts not even mad just tired

no species should be sapient

thanks

me but in reverse (minus the jerking) androphilia is humiliating and rife with problems but idk how people feel attraction to women i just feel nothing & zone out

don’t think i have bpd, just 2 completely separate personalities & egos/identities who are polar opposites of each other and one just hates everyone

@exoneratedcurl he’s such a weird guy (lawyer poon not you obviously)

Got my first ai fan art 🥹

just annoys me, those in control should be genetically enhanced higher thinking posthuman beings with outdated animal instinct programming removed instead it’s just fat inbred apes abusing children & starting forever wars to release more dopamine, fucking chimp tribe with nukes

and it’s not like theres higher goals of any benefit from those in control, its just trying to find new depraved ways to indulge those animal instincts of pleasure and gluttony in increasing ways because excess & no struggle so dopamine numbing & boredom because animal brains

in theory i wouldnt have issue with a secret group of elites controlling everything because the average human is a dumb hedonistic instinct driven ape but the elites we have are also dumb hedonistic animals running on outdated animal urges gone wild civilisation is just retarded

>inb4 ‘just rope then if you hate it so much’ tried, i live in a cuntry with no firearm ownership so only methods i have are painful & unreliable, and survival instincts, my brain is still programmed like an animal to force me into never being able to lock in properly

even most animals dont have good lives, most who do are because humans artificially give them better lives than is natural life for most things is brutal, painful, miserable, bloody and usually just about fucking before the usually horrific inevitable end sapience is a cruel joke

honestly i dont even feel bad about the inability to have children thing as much anymore because i truly do believe it’s an insanely selfish cruel fucked decision to force something to live, only excusable for simple animals who genuinely cant think or reason it (people included)

i find my physical existence and everything about myself & my body nauseating and suffocating, it’s like feeling myself rotting & being able to taste and choking on the stink and fumes of decomposition but can’t be helped so

@fagcoper i don’t get the puppy play thing, do the doms want to fuck dogs but are setting for the legal larp version?

truagp

fuck off

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