Ellie

@PurplePeople Mississippi Sawback Map Turtle, only found in the Pearl River waterway ways.

@appleMechanic Aw! 😊🧡🫶🏻

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My nervous system learned early on that it was important to stay “on.” That I needed to anticipate others needs and manage the emotional environments that I was in. Eventually, unconsciously, I began to equate that I couldn’t rest until I was safe, and I couldn’t be safe until I was done being useful. So now, when I slow down, my body doesn’t immediately register it as relaxing or feeling safe. It actually registers it more as being risky. Even though now I don’t consciously agree with this at all, the idea that my rest has to be justified still lives in my body as a pattern in my nervous system that I am still struggling to overcome. Obviously there’s the social layer to this too, of being watched and evaluated, as if relaxing in front of others exposes me as being lazy or not valuable. This is where the “fear of being perceived” thing comes out. It’s not easy work, retraining a patterned nervous system. It’s uncomfortable and hard to be getting all these various signals of danger, and not respond to them the way I’m used to. And doing that over, again and again and again. But before I go trying to “fix” things, for me, it’s really important that I sit with them first. Simply watching and seeking to understand the feelings, the thoughts, and my reasons behind them, then bringing lots of love, acceptance and non-judgment into that place with me. Anyway, just sharing my thoughts as I’ve been going through this a lot lately.🌼

@johnmorkunas1 @the_bassplayer This^

@the_bassplayer @richoblation You have really nice legs. 😍❤

It's about that time of year to put the jeans up until November LOL. @richoblation

@PurplePeople Must have been a glitch

Interview with Mary Phagan-Kean x.com/i/broadcasts/1…

@PurplePeople I can hear sound now!

@PurplePeople omg. great connection but no sound

@richoblation Time to rock

“What time is it?” Now. The time is now.

Mississippi #9 (recent thoughts): Don’t come at me for this but, if I were to guess, I would say that the state animal of Mississippi is probably ringworm. On another note, I can already feel Mississippi changing me, and I’ve only been here two months. But I want y’all to know I’m really trying not to become bigoted or to stereotype others. I mean. . . one of my closest friends is an older white man. 🤷🏻‍♀️

@CastilloLe85942 So cuteeee! I love 💗 that you’re painting again!!!!

📪 My Mail box nearly done! I’ve loved blue morning glories since I was a girl on the farm. My neighbor’s little girl suggested I needed some blue birds too.. Except for some clear top coat, here it is ! 💙🥰

@appleMechanic I love all the ways that this was interpreted. I like both of your answers, but it was meant as what vegetable would you use against another person to attack or defend yourself.

@richoblation okay i read this as combat with a vegetable. as your opponent my immediate reaction was so ghetto squash because i would just bring a fork! but if i think actually probably one pea 🥹😔 but did you mean defending yourself using which vegetable

You have to defend yourself in combat with a vegetable. Which vegetable are you choosing and why?

@hugheart2heart I know now it’s always changing. Becoming and unbecoming. Understanding and ignorance. New “I” emerging constantly.

@richoblation So did you found out who and what you are? Now you know?

@EYazembiaku6gl Ooo. Nice Yaz. I love it when I can nap.

@richoblation Just woke from a little tile nap pie🥰

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RIP Sam Kieth