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Capek bgt deh netizen, isi otaknya negatif think melulu. Ga capek kah kepalanya mikirin “what if” nya orang lain 😂

@miwbagde Dah tau simpang siur tapi lu sebarin. Jahat lu.

@kring_pajak untuk aktivasi coretax PNS maksimal hari ini apa esok ya? Dari tadi coba akses websitenya bad gateaway terus huft

Masalahnyaaaaa. Kita kerja beneran. Hari H, ampe hotel pun mandi ga tenang karna ditungguin laporannya 😭 Ga makan siang, demi sampe ontime di venue. Kelar acara balik baru makan, itu pun selesaikan berita dulu. Masa dapetnya banyakan yg di kantor input berkas? hiks

Plis gimana caranya biar sabar, ikhlas legowo dan percaya bahwa akan digantikan dengan rezeki yg lebih baikkk??? 😭🙏🏻

Bismillah Desember balik lagi, tapi pulangnya happy 🤍

Siapa sangka kemaren happy, minum matcha kalcer, haha hehe hihi hoho. Eh ga nyampe 24 jam udah berubah jadi huhu sama HAHHHH???

Memang harusnya hidup enggak jumawa. Tiba-tiba adaaaa aja surpresnya.

Aku ga tau kalo masang balik kipas angin setelah dibersihin bisa bikin sefrustasi ini. Soalnya ga bisa asking My Dad’s help dan ngomong “Bahhh, ini kda bisa lagi masang kipasnya 😭” anymore 💔💔💔

I’m tired making my dad’s death as the reason behind my mental breakdown. But i can’t lie that it does make it worse.

I feel like. Kok kayaknya aku ga bisa apa-apa gitu. Yg berguna. Yg bikin bahagia. Tanpa perlu divalidasi. Validasi diri sendiri? Dah sering(dalam hati, atau waktu sendiri). Saking seringnya sampe takut jadi NPD.

Capek. Mau produktif dan cari something new to do, tapi aku-nya males. Can’t help but blaming my own self for this.

But when everything’s done, everybody got appreciation, but me. People even made posts about it. How they work really hard to make that project works. Kira-kira masih dosa ga kalo aku minta validasi kalo situasinya begini?🥲💔

So there’s something that they need me to do. Unlike usual, they ask me to do something more, where unfortunately i was sick at the moment. I still do it anyway, even tho i have to redo it soooooo many times because i want to gave my best. 💔

But when finally i got to do something, they don’t even bother to appreciate me. That’s how i feel. Apakah aku haus validasi? 🥲

Seems like everyone are busy but me.

Udah tau ga punya siapa-siapa, eh ngeluh pun dilarang. Huft.

Hidup lagi demotivated disuruh tugas malem minggu.