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⋆˚࿔ ed/ocdtwt intro ⨾༊󠀺 ᯽ not fatphobic + high sw !! ᯽ ᯽ 5’4" ꩜ 💉 11/25 💉 ꩜ pro recov ᯽ ᯽ dni (fatphobes, anti recov, minors) ᯽ ᯽ sw: 288lbs gw: 108.8lbs ugw: 98lbs ᯽ ♡ & ↺ to be moots .ᐟ.ᐟ

long island ..

actually gna relapse n smoke some weed maybe it'll make it easier

update me n my mom got into an argument and now shes trying to prevent me from seeing my dad

dont care about him at all and i hate being angry but im so fucking angry and ik my mom is so scared bcuz the other day my dad was like i finally slept through the night and your mother thought i was dead

i hate the healthcare system my dad's drain tube came out and they not only made him stay home then when they finally saw him they just removed and sent him back i've been changing his bandages since because his nurse still hasn't came and im so fucking upset it feels like they

@indigotaway thank you genuinely i really appreciate your advice i might actually try standing by the door for awhile and see if that helps too

@rottedogg you don't notice your progress immediately but with consistency it will happen and one day you'll look back and realize you actually did the thing that once felt impossible

how to cope with agoraphobia no glue no borax or however the meme goes

@indigotaway also sorry for just rambling on like that

@indigotaway it also ties into my fear that if i go out im going to get a call that hes gone and im not gonna be home for my family when they need me the most

yeah but at least i wont end up doing something that'll just hurt my family even more than what we're going through now so idfc its justified and eventually i will loop back around to restricting and even omading

old that when they die i would end it and now i don't want to i want to live bit i know how bad i am when it comes to dealing with grief that im certain i will at the very least attempt more than once if i dont succeed am i gonna hate myself later and hate my body even more ?y

so update my dad has pancreatic cancer which means he is most likely going to die so im just gonna smoke a shit ton of weed and binge to cope idc if i gain because its either this or i kill myself once hes gone because i cannot handle it i told both my parents when i was 14 years

Rahh i wish i could wear outfits like this fr

@dietbea827 i usually went for beans so what i used to do after was clean it usually with wound wash then i put ointment and then wrap/bandage it then you just change the bandages and put on ointment every day till its healed ! be safe and if you see any signs of infection go to urgent care

TW: SH . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . looking at the pic i took and i one swiped to beans i thought it was just deep styro but nope i see some poking out IM SO COOKED FUCK I DONT EVEN REMEMBER HOW TO DO AFTERCARE FOR ANYTHING DEEPER THAN SHALLOW STYRO

binging bcuz im feeling extremely suicidal i had 3 slices of cheese pizza and now im having a pint of halo top ahahjsd

3/18/26: feel like i ate too much today ://

3/17/26: i had a big dinner cuz i was rlly hungry but i think it should be okay

wieiad thread !! 🧵 :

im so hungry cuz i smoked 4 bowls and im scared im gna over eat and i rlly dont wna do that i feel better when i stay under my cal limit but i am in the mood for sweets ://