Samantha

1 MONTH sober 😄 I am very happy with that today. Don’t get me wrong I am still depressed and anxiety ridden it’s def not a cure, but I know that I am feeling insurmountably better than if I where to have continued drinking into the new year. Let the journey continue..

@tcgolfer1313 I don’t feel bad for myself, just was a hard day of negative self thoughts . I will make a list today. Thank you!

@samiam1294 Poor me, poor me, pour me another drink!! Try making a gratitude list🙏❤️

I feel like everyone has always just spoke disappointment of me. Messing up, not doing the things I’m supposed to do. Getting in trouble. I feel like my father doesn’t even seem to care if I see him again ever. My grandfather told me I never see anything through; the list could

How am I supposed to reengage back into society when my credibility is gone?

(Cont) go on. Im just so tired of everything and feeling like shit about all the bad things I’ve done or said. I burned all the bridges I had built the last year, due to my own self-imposed isolation. I’m just a failure it seems.

Maybe they got the alleged Idaho murderes DNA through like a piece of tissue or something after they figured it was him 🤔

If I shower and don’t feel starving at the end of the night when I’m going to sleep, it’s been a good day. That’s how I’m gaging my days at this point. Lol. It’s not funny, but if I make light of it, it makes my life feel like a dramatic comedy.

I’m in survival mode rn. Everyday feels so hard. I’m sure it’ll get better though. Just going to take care of myself and prioritize comfort ❤️‍🩹

@charliersmith1 Did you know you where declining in your mental health or did it come out of no where?

Around a year ago, I did 24 half marathons over 24 days to raise lots of money for charity Meanwhile, today I’m sectioned on a psych ward, with no idea when I’ll get out I’m always the first to share my victories - but sometimes life doesn’t go to plan, and that’s okay too 💚

I was also recently diagnosed with fibromyalgia; how do people get over these low periods whilst still keeping their jobs? It’s rendered me at times immobile due to pain and fatigue that I’ve been experiencing.

I know I’m a great coach but no one understands how hard it is for me to turn “ON”. J just want to paint inside my home and do virtual training. I must work for that

Good morning guys! It’s 7:45am and my anxiety is rearing it’s ugly head. I’m a personal trainer and thinking of quitting because the small talk and schedule feels like it’s killing me

That’s all for tonight. Fun fact I got both of my DUIs on thanksgiving. 2014 & 2015. That’s all for tonight, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Thank you.

Every issue I’ve had/big traumatic event, has been rooted in my lack of self-esteem. Not understanding what I deserve. Not seeing my value. Those 2 and half years of complete no alcohol, gave me clarity and an understanding of myself that I wouldn’t have gained if I never quit.

Life is short and I now realize what my main issue was which was my self esteem. Thinking I wasn’t enough without being under the influence. I thought I was cooler and more fun if drunk. But my sober self is the coolest 😎 that’s what I’ve realized in this journey. It’s a choice.

Hey guys been awhile. Ugh I started drinking again in “moderation” or whatever and I can 10/10 tell you it’s not worth it. I mean I haven’t lost anything big and my life isn’t falling apart, but it’s just not the same. It’s like my body rejects it lol

Hey what’s up twittersphere. Is this thing still on 🎤🤔🤔🤔

919 days sober y’all. Thank god the next holiday isn’t until thanksgiving. Summer is so hard for me but I’m hanging in there!!!! I have accomplished so much the last 2 years that I NEVER would have gotten done if I was still drinking…

@nappyroots919 Keep your head up! We got this✊🏽❤️

Depression - 1 Timone- 0

When they don’t understand sobriety for me and fitness is a job. I have to focus on it all hours of the day really. And I would like a job helping other people that have been in my same spiral..I know I’m not alone but just feeling confused on what to do today.