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like yes i still hate my body and feel like shit but i dont feel like keeling over and dying when my girlfriend takes about how she loves every part of me

i’m ngl lesbianism has done so much good for my body image

retroactive jealousyis a bitch

anyways sorry to be depressing #whoops idk if any of my oomfs are active anymore

it’s frustrating that my friends are great and the best ever, i’m in college when i thought for the longest i wouldn’t live to this age, i have a girlfriend that’s head over heels for me… my life is great but i can’t seem to appreciate it because of my body and how i look

being skinny was overstimulating for me just as being fat is. i hated how my bones touched and hated feeling them as much as i loved seeing them. i don’t want to live in this body anymore its frustrating

like yes. i looked good i looked great but i looked fucking horrible and felt horrible and i want to be back there again but i can’t deal with doing it the healthy way like i might as well just rip the bandaid off and let it bleed

i look emaciated. and it’s insane because i was just avg skinny but i lost so much weight my cheeks looked hallowed out and the loose skin around my armpits/thighs and my ribs poking out urgrhufjr

i long to be back to my lw and lower but everytime i look at pictures and my body checks by then all i feel is dread

it hurts seeing my progress reverse

i’ve had this ed for awhile, i’m in college now. i haven’t touched this account in ages

i genuinely have to lock the fuck in for the next few months until prom

watch this is gonna be me again

idk if anyone is seeing this and,,, yeah but uhm i have a girlfriend now i thinkf

hi guys

she jackin on my latern till i HOLLER WEENNNNN

@oIdpistoIa Jungkook is a good person, a precious person we love, Chiitan will protect Jungkook

oh my goodness HESOCUTE