𝖠𝗋𝗂𝖺

‧ ˚. 🧁‧ ˚₊ ꒰ 𝖴𝗇𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗍 𝗆𝗒 𝗅𝗐 ꒱ ₊˚ ‧🧁 .˚ ‧

i need it to stop

I haven’t been reading anything other than stories & textbooks for school for about 2 years 💀 it’s hard to find something engaging but once you do it’s so worth it ‼️

Also, if you’re struggling with binge eating I highly recommend reading something that you can get into. I used to think that the reading suggestion was stupid and wouldn’t really work, but since I’ve started reading more I can confirm that it does help to pass time.

and am not purging anymore. I don’t have urges and I don’t think I’ll be relapsing considering how ashamed I was every time I’d make myself throw up. The shame I feel now is nowhere near as horrendous as it was then

I binged yesterday + walked 33k steps so I could be retaining some water? Regardless though, I’m actually motivated and I’m not hungry anymore after binging for at least 2 weeks straight… 💀 I am very insecure about my body (now more than ever) BUT I’m getting my interests back

Nvm my last post ig… felt ballsy this morning and finally weighed myself. I’ve gained to bmi 14.9 nd will NOT letting that shit to get 15.0 so I AM LOCKING IN 🙏

I hate that it’s always “please get help, please talk to someone” and there’s never actually anyone who can help. No one takes insurance. Out of pocket is $300 an appt. Society doesn’t make getting help easy until a tragedy happens and it’s like “why didn’t they just reach out?”

Got told I’m getting fat

@belong222heaven I haven’t read the rest of the replies, so I don’t know everyone’s reason for keeping vomit or hiding it without discarding it immediately after an episode. However, I’ve seen many posts (usually vents) regarding people struggling with bulimia hiding vomit in bags or containers.

@shguria because i havent. people purging to get rid of it yes?? people purging to get up and throw it down the toilet or outside yes? to HOARD puke bags for weeks like some of the people in these replies, HELLL NO

bulimia should not be romanticised

@belong222heaven I know your account was made in 2020. That has nothing to do with how hard it is to believe you’ve been on this subtwt for 8 years, yet claim to have never see anything like this 🤷‍♀️

@shguria @SlaughterOClock @fru1tl0v3r i wass but ok. my account alone is 6 yrs old lol tf

@belong222heaven @SlaughterOClock @fru1tl0v3r You have not been on edtwt for 8 years LOL if you had then this would not be new to you

@SlaughterOClock @fru1tl0v3r she's bulimic, not anorexic. i was on edtwt for 8 years and never in my life did i see nobody puke in bags and hoard them in their room.

I hate that if I have one bad experience with a safe food it immediately becomes a fear food

when will i lose weight and when will i look pretty

April 1 / April 2 No accountability update for today,,,, I have a huge chem exam and it’s stressing the living shit out of me. After this I’m going to try to plan out a new intake for myself until I step on the scale again. After that I’ll calculate a wl estimate from cico 🙃

🎀‧₊˚.🪽🫧 ˚₊ 𝖠𝗉𝗋𝗂𝗅 ₊˚ 🫧🪽‧₊˚.🎀 🌈‧₊˚‧ Accountability Thread ‧₊˚.🌈

‧🫧.˚🎀‧˚₊🪽𝖳𝗁𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝗌 🪽₊˚‧ 🎀˚.🫧‧

or bulimia since I’d imagine it’d be about the same idk

Edtwt / How much weight would be considered average (or normal-ish) to gain within ≈ 3 weeks of recovering from purging??? 😭

and idc if people think these games are childish cus I enjoy them 😒

I miss when people enjoyed playing games that didn’t involve technology. Like, what happened to playing I Spy, Hopscotch, Tic-Tac-Toe, etc????

I really wish I could be proud of this, but I look and feel worse which makes regret it all. I wish I knew how long this is going to take to get better