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[260329] #YOUNGJAE third day ending ment translation 🐶: first of all until this third day, i’m truly very thankful and grateful to the members, to 42s who came here in person, to the 42s watching online, and to all the staff who helped us. today, um… this might perhaps become a bit of a heavy story, but i hope you can understand that i want to share even the smallest parts of myself with 42, and i would be thankful if you could listen with an open heart. first, ever since i was young my dream was always to become a singer. after joining the company, i used to travel back and forth, riding the bus alone for six hours from gimhae starting from my third year of middle school. then at the age of seventeen, i left my parents and came up to seoul to live alone. i lived in a dorm with my fellow trainees and back then i really didn’t know anything. i devoted half of my school years like that and eventually debuted as tws. but honestly, debuting wasn’t the very idealistic and fantastical kind of debut that i had always dreamed (imagined) of, it was actually very far from that. after debut, life was completely the opposite. i thought that as long as i just worked hard on singing and dancing and enjoyed the stage as it is, that would be enough. but the reality i faced was that every single moment, every minute and second, i had to prove myself as a person, and if i couldn’t, there were moments when my self-esteem would become very low. anyway, being among members right next to me who are all so talented and full of charm, and among so many senior and junior artists, i kept wondering how i could continue to appeal myself. i thought about it a lot, but honestly, i still haven’t found the answer to that. even so before being tws youngjae, i hope you will look at me as i am. choi youngjae as a person, just as i am. now 42 and tws, who once didn’t even know of each other’s existence have blended into each other’s daily lives and have become reasons for each other to live. sometimes, when i see 42s who seem to know me even better than i know myself, i find it amazing and thinking... “how can they know me better than i do?” even though we may be people who have never met face-to-face even once. so, i’m really thankful to our 42s who made me realize what it means to have our hearts connected beyond not having met even once and because 42 exists, even when i feel like i’m lacking or not good enough, even when my confidence drops, just knowing that there are so many people who look at me and support me from behind makes it possible for me to keep going. no matter how much i may think i have many shortcomings, from now on as well, just as 42s leads me like this, i will also trust 42s and do my best every day to live as someone who can grow even more through hard work, thank you 💗 #TWS #투어스 #영재