depressions starting to creep its ass back up all because for some reason, I want to be good at this fucking game so bad and im just not. so I give up.
almost just broke my monitor because of how ass I’ve become. It just hurts to lose everything I had. To feel like any potential I had for anything other than streams was ripped away from me with seemingly no reason. I’m probably just overthinking it, but it hurts regardless.
tapping feels so bad I dont even wanna play the game rn, this has been happening for a few days now. Ik im sick but it was still an issue beforehand just not as bad.
parallel play is so goated, like we both doing our own shit in the same room, and then every so often i can come over and give you a little kiss or something, ask how your game is going or whatever, or you do the same to me
hell yeah
shit like that just makes me wanna not play sometimes. ik im inconsistent, and im washed as shit, but is it that hard to believe I can A rank a map. certain things are difficult for certain people and me saying whats difficult for me and whats easy is “ragebaiting”. okay man.