🌿🌸 chibichippy 🦢🦌

my strawpage that i'll check every 2nd saturday lala chibichippy.straw.page

@OldInternetFeel hey, @malee

شفت هذي الصورة و احس اريد مانهوا ياوي بطلها صدام وخميني

@maleeuthanasia ofc this applies to you!!

@maleeuthanasia of course

@maleeuthanasia second one is from nature.com/articles/s4159…

@maleeuthanasia im a piece of chit hypocrite for eating chicken and drinking milk but even i can admit red meat ex diabolo est

i have an urge to suffer bc i feel like i deserve it more than others rather than empathy, i think the source is growing up being shown attention mostly when i suffered so i think it's a type of narcissism. suffering = attention, so i if i suffer most, i deserve attention most

and i feel so guilty for feeling like this, because i know so many people have it so much worse than i ever have shouldnt compare to others, but it still gnaws at me, in my head is the strange idea that if i dont quantitatively suffer more than anyone else, then i should shut up

weird feeling when i see people online my age or younger living the life i want, especially when it comes to acceptance by self and others im happy for them, but i get so, so jealous. what do you mean your youth wasnt just being endlessly beaten, insulted, degraded, by everyone?

@OfficiallyIta you're french you're fine. une bise a toi

Key 🟥 = Humans ⬜️ = Animals

@val_does_stuff2 i didnt like it back then but now i often think about how much i want a boy to beat me up

@val_does_stuff2 picrel was me in school

@AleMaidenless i've had a fairly strong idea of what i'd look like as a cis(-passing) girl, i remember even when i was a kid i would have vivid dreams where i woke up as her, writing in my diary about how right it all felt. my stupid manmoder life

@sillymoder41 Wishing to know how you would look if you were cis is something like this fr

If I met girl me I'd cry. She'd hold me, ask what's wrong 'I wish I had your face.. Memories.. Name.. I wish I were you..' '.. Why? Its so hard being a girl..' 'Im sure.. But you live.. Life as a man isnt living at all..' Shes quiet. I apologise for saying something so stupid

@NotRainforsure ☝️ we ALL say this

im awkward and socially stunted so i dont even reply to things i just react with a heart emoji ❤️ or a pink heart emoji 🩷

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@perroquit 💐

@sillymoder41 I hope that everything goes well for you, you deserve it

i was ~9 when i first started to want to die, but it isnt clear to me when i started to feel like i deserve to die feels more recent than when i was taught by others i deserved death nevertheless, i hope the next ~5 years, if i survive them, will be where my pains are resolved

you can tell chibichippy thinks he deserves to live 😭👍