Ella Silver

Learn from Ireland Sometimes the abuser wins And playing far dead is far better than being kicked to death

My favorite uncle can’t die again well I’m raped by a pimp. But he did. And I’m so hard and so soft as a result Nothing will ever be as bad as that. But because of that. I trust nothing. And never will. I’m

Being abused in every way in a preschool daycare Then raped multiple times Then outing every single one of those abusers and rapists And watching exactly none of the consequences society pretends to promise criminals really hardens and softens you. It’ll never be worse

Intox me and whisper on my ear exactly how the alcohol is rotting my organs how the smoke is poisoning my mind, choking my lungs, that you laced it, that you’re as educated as I am and know the substance is taking years of my life but you’re glad you don’t care

I can’t speak for millennials but as a cusp Gen Z negging is NOT the way to my heart or loins I will start crying and block you immediately I might be masochistic but I’m also very emotionally sensitive don’t talk about my looks man I already body shame myself I don’t need you

mutt thinks we should punish all abusers, including your abusive friend that “never did anything to you” and that they were “young and dumb” 🐺🩸

@Sammy59392811 I feel you me as well I want children someday it’s a hard balance to find someone who is sadistic and kinky enough to satisfy our more masochistic desires but also responsible and affectionate enough to be trusted with a long term owner free use relationship

(I’ve just been welcomed back by my parents and church community), I need to be very careful. I’m looking for real long-term connection and genuine ownership — not quick pictures or casual talk. I hope my posts can help other women see the beauty and peace in God’s natural order

Being abused and raped and seeing none of those people go to jail but being traumatized regardless makes it so hard to trust yourself or even know what it is you even truly want

Not loving the bookmarks gang !!

Unfortunately the idea of being murdered will always be a bit sexy to me

As an Irish person- a lot more English dudes are like this (cringe/psycho/petty and insecure af) then you might think!!

Negging annoys me, being love bombed annoys me, reply guys annoy me, replying with money’s the only way to my heart always

mock sympathy is so hot

Every time I go over my older fuck buddy’s house I fantasize that another person is hiding with a gun and they are going to force me into my first ever male male female threesome. 😩 He’s the sweetest he’d never but God the idea of like a surprise cnc threesome thrills me

monster under your bed but it's just your pervy older brother who likes to touch himself to your sleeping body

romanticizing vampirism is my favorite thing to do

Let’s normalize not gossiping about people you don’t know a damn thing about thank you

This is what galls me about my extended family tho cuz how are you gonna not know a single correct thing about me despite me being a open and honest book with you for all 26 years of my life - where were you when my brother was dying in a hospital while a daycare abused me bro?

My aunt messaged my parents she has a hard time believing the “extensive bruising” she saw on my shoulder at a family party came from a piece of furniture. She didn’t even see the full extent of my arms, legs and butt but whatever and she told my mom she hopes I wasn’t mugged 😭