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#edtwt #venttwt intro 17yo (08) any pronouns dx depression, social anxiety and autism ─────── ᓚᘏᗢ ────── pl/eng coffee lover yapping about everything, but mostly just rambling ♡/↻ if u want to be moots

@amphelis unfortunately not, she's 21yo 😭

@sleepycatts If it's a little kid it would be funny but I suppose she's not. I'm sorry (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

just realised, my sister is firmly convinced that I’m incapable of feeling emotions and definitely of being sad cos I’m on the spectrum. so, actually, doesn't she think that having autism makes you a psychopath🤨 or something very close to a robot

and the fact that garcia was also cosplaying, but as 11th doctor??? can the main characters of this show get any better??

that moment when your favourite character from your favourite show loves one of your other favourite shows 🙏🙏

jeez

every thought that I want to express sounds like constant yelling how miserable I am and everyone has to know what. I could say some random sentence or just stand, and still basically be mr attention seeker, always needing to prove how depressed he is. while I literally feel fine

the same goes for alcohol if you know what I mean

the only thing stopping me from becoming a drug addict and then deliberately offing myself throught it is my social anxiety

very random thought, but whatever

honestly I’m surprised that no one apart from my sister has ever physically bullied me; because my appearance, behaviour and personality are literally the most typical triggers for people who do that 😭

what's worse is that I like my current name, but I can't keep it cos it's too feminine. atp just put a gun to my temple and pull the trigger

I would admit rn that I want to take testosterone and be seen mainly as a boy. but it's a huge change, and I’d also have to find myself a new name. tbh I think if I wasn’t autistic, it wouldn’t be that difficult. instead, everything is too terrifying in my head to act on

imagine having parents that after their child’s diagnosis would seek out a specialist with whom they could discuss it and learn the best approach to take with you and how to help u in your daily routine, or would do a large amount of research to be well informed. what a dream

I mean, it doesn’t make me get angry at others; just too scared, stressed or sad to do something. it may sound stupid, but that really makes it more difficult for me to function normally

I know others can't know that, but I wish my family knew how to talk to me. I mean, the tone and sentence structure, which would be the best to use, cos most of the ways people speak I perceive as a sort of attack (unintentionally). I tried to talk to them about it, but eh

getting mad at a lw disordered person for feeling fat is like getting mad at a depressed person for feeling sad

started season 7 of criminal minds AND WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BOY HOTCH?? WHY IS HE SO SKINNY???? I don’t know if it's just that I've got too used to how he looked before, but it looks like either the character or the actor has ed, cause seriously that weight difference is sick

@livdo00 same😔✊ I’ll be doomed when I finally have to interact with someone who's not my family

no shade I havent had a conversation with anyone irl for ages only just a few words with my family omg

I've decided I want to make a new oc, and like the moment I thought about it, thousands of thoughts started buzzing in my head, but I can only feel their presence, not read or use them. it's genuinely worse than having a total blank inside, iykwim😭

it's a prison if nobody around you is able to understand or help, while your body and mind are nothing more than tools for your torment